And Then I Said Goodbye to Sunrise

Well here we are, unfortunately not in the maelstrom of love, getting some shit out before starting on some homework. Laundry is going, hair is wet, gnome pants are on, and Soul Society is going. I'm loving all my new Kamelot music and have many ideas for a few inspired paintings! And what are the chances, it's sea themed again.

I dunno. It's been a good past week overall. I started work at the new place and this weekend will mark my last at the Fugu. Thank frakin' God. That place sucks balls.

Spending time at home was nice because I got to sleeeeeeep and catch up on my life. And sleep. And wear fancy clothes to the world's easiest job ever. Now I just have to get through the next two weeks and I'll be good to go!

So it's been two years. Funny how fast and slow times flies sometimes. It was a pleasant evening and I look forward to what next year has in store. Knowing us, we'll just both do the same thing, ha ha.

But then there's that whole hat. And not the work hat, unfortunately. Nope, it's the what the hell am I doing with my life right now hat. The one where I feel the need to poison my liver every Friday and procrastinate on life.

xx I Wrote A Letter To The Angels To Follow Me Into The Light Marz

It's Happening

This is actually happening...

and I'm okay with it.

What Is It About November

Why is it that everyone's feelings change in November? What is it about this godforsaken month that flips a switch in people? Is it the weather, or the impending holidays?

It's unbearable, that's what it is. Especially now. I don't know what I am anymore, and I'm struggling to find a way out of this rut. I'm just so tired. The amount of work that keeps piling up just won't stop, and I won't sleep until its done. I can't relax because I know there's always shit that needs to be done. Nothing can ever just stop. I don't want any obligations or things on my schedule. I want to have free time like every one else. I want to sleep.

I don't want this anymore.

xx Sleep Well, Lullay Lullay Marz

There Was A Time

When the nights were warm and the breeze was still, that I purposely created a distance to enjoy the extra time I had. But now the nights are cold and sharp and I find myself making that same path shorter and much more alone.

I guess I'm truly never alone. It's reassuring in a way to know there will always be someone to turn to, but I know it's not what I want. I want to see the world and feel its pain. My love, it lies so deep.

xx You Have Shown Me The Sky Marz

DONE WITH THIS

NIGHT TWO OF STAYING UP ALL NIGHT BEFORE COM DESIGN BLOCK.

What weirds me out is that I'm just not tired. Tomorrow's gonna blow... hopefully I fit in that nap before work. No brownies tomorrow. Just napping, then work, then come home and goof off.

The songs I just can't stop listening to:
HIS VOICE IS SO DARKLY GOLDEN AND BEAUTIFUL. HE'S SINGING TO ME, LIKE HE DID 9 YEARS AGO.


And then this... I LOVE trios, and this is one of the most beautiful ones. Raol's voice is pure gold. It's such a gorgeously emotional mix of voices and feelings. SO MUCH DRAMA AND LOVE!


And then of course, the omitted song from the film. WHY DIDN'T THEY PUT THIS IN THE MOVIE. Oh my God, he's so dreamy. And this song is just pure love for Christine.

You know what, I can actually sing Dulcinea. Hmmm.

xx No One Would Listen, No One But Her Marz

Confessions

I still rip my toe nails off.
I secretly do like being picked up.
I correspond with practically strangers.
I see strength in others, but can't call upon that strength for myself.
I don't spend as much time on my work as I should.
I do the bare minimum.
I don't challenge myself nearly enough.
I'm lazy.

What a bizarre week it's been.  And I'm sick now -__-

xx Night By Night Marz