I Wish You Were Here

Oh my country man, I wish you were here.

Beautiful song. So I made a bunch of mixtapes... two are general upbeat and fun songs, the third is very personal. It's how I saw myself transform over the past seven months... it's pretty interesting, actually. Eleven songs, from the beginning angst ("I Hope You Die") all the way through the acceptance, hope, and then "The Secret". So it's kind of a horrible circle... I dunno, at the same time, it feels terribly poetic and is a total emotional release.

Speaking of a horrible circle... yeah. I don't want to get myself caught in this again. But it's really difficult, kind of like... temptation. Like seeing a beautiful brush set. My mind says no, but my heart says yes. I lay eyes on it and I feel happy and regular and I know that I want it. I'll find a way to get it.

But this isn't the same.

xx I Could Hardly Wait To See You Again, To Feel Your Hands Marz