Romantic Movie List

If I had a free day to just sit around and have a romantic movie day, I would pick these, in this order:

- Beauty and the Beast
- Ever After
- Phantom of the Opera
- The Piano
- The Crow
- Edward Scissorhands
- Man of La Mancha
- Moulin Rouge

Although they're not all technically romances, they make me feel the warmest fuzzies I could ever feel. I love it all. Although sometimes, I wish I didn't know what that loving feeling felt like just to be able to feel... basic. Average. I dunno.

xx Were You Once An Outcast Too Marz

SUOOOOMMIIIII

The more I read about Finland, the more I fall in love with it and can't wait to visit someday. I want to see the fortress on the islands, Helsinki, Lapland, eat the crazy nature inspired food, and be in the land of pale blonde people. Oh, and maybe catch some good music! I'm even wearing my shirt now!

Today was good and bad, which is unfortunate. I woke up and went to English, which was an okay class, nothing special. After that, I went and got a haircut to get rid of these nasty frizzy ends once and for all (Well, for now, really) so I'd stop feeling so gross looking. Satisfying haircut for $4.50! Then I went and got my new phone and ate some Wingstop! Mmmmmm. I have to cut back from ten to eight wings, cause I can never finish the last two. I was bummed to turn off my beloved G2 that has served me for the better part of two years, but upgrade is upgrade. I like the new phone for the most part! I got a case for it off Amazon for a few bucks, so that'll be good.

What else... I skipped class tonight to continue with the me day. I spent the evening working on illustrations and actually got them printed on the plotter with no problems! I just have to cut them out now and finish refining my type babies. So no going to bed at four, but if I don't get my lazy ass in gear, I just might be! I never really ate dinner either... hmm. Maybe it's food time.

Oh man, I need to get the film score from Imaginaerum. And I need to find a download for the instrumental Imaginaerum songs that I already have because Turn Loose The Mermaids and Taikatalvi are bound to be beautiful. Oh my God, why is Tuomas such a musical genius? This man needs to go down in history for the most beautiful music.




OH GOD EMPPU, PLAY THAT BEAUTIFUL MELODY.

xx The Mermaid Grace, The Forever Call Marz

AC CONFESSIONS?!

I'm Going To Miss The Gravel Crunch

Well this weekend has passed in a blur of naps, work, sleeping, passing out on the bathroom floor, naps, and now it's ending with homework. I REALLY wanted to watch Bedknobs and Broomsticks, but I couldn't find a site to watch it on. So I ended up going with The Piano because at least Netflix works. Oh God, I forgot how much I love this movie. The way Baines looks at Ada just makes my heart melt. LOVE ME TOO, BAINES.

Bleh. I just want to sleep. Not really, here's a list of things I want to do.

- Update my Amazon wishlist
- Finish my Subaru wings
- Pick out colors and trims for Ren dress
- Pick out shit for Belldandy
- Clean my room
- Paint insignia
- Finish Revelations
- Reorganize my closet
- Finish ripping pockets off my work shirts

OH SWEET SANTA CLAUS SHIT.

xx They Grew And Grew To The Steeple Top Marz

Vanilla Twilight?

I literally haven't listened to this song in two years, and it's weird now. I dunno, I don't like it.

In unrelated news, I got a great night of sleep last night and a fantastic day today. Lots of sleep, easy writing class, a quiet afternoon of Chickfila and Ah! My Goddess (Which I'm in love with now), a brief Skepticism test review, and just general hanging out with my friends. It was a great day off! I need more like these.

So right now I'm gonna knock out my homework real fast and then start working on my Subaru wings! I want to make a Belldandy costume now... sooooo bad. Her costume is so cool, but looks like a huuuuge bitch to make :P But it's one of those costumes that could be glammed up so well, so I could definitely play around with it. Maybe one dayyyy.

xx He Looks Conceited, What A Total Bummer Marz

These Feels

I often feel this charismatic when I talk about things I love. Like, I literally always picture this in my head.

Zorro and Lita have been fighting and it's driving me crazy. Homework has piled up and it's making me sad. Boooo life.

What I wish my life was like:

What my life is really like:

xx You're Gonna Have To Hold On Marz

Ten Days

Was all it took.



"I used to think if I cared about anything, I would have to care about everything and I'd go stark raving mad."

xx Now Look At What You've Done To Me Marz

I Should Make Story Playlists

1. I've Just Seen A Face
2. Dangerous Kind
3. Something
4. Killing Loneliness
5. Flight Over Venice
6. Night After Night
7. If I Fell
8. Your Song
9. Run To You
10. A Feast For The Vain
11. Just For Tonight
12. Make This Minute Last
13. I Wasn't Prepared
14. Gone With The Sin
15. It Won't Fade
16. Things I'll Never Say
17. Guilty
18. Catherine Howard's Fate
19. Nothing Ever Dies 
20. If I Can't Love Her
21. El Tango De Roxanne
22. Jack's Lament
23. Lose You Tonight
24. Yesterday

xx She Is Smiling Alone Marz

Whoah, Life Resumes

Seriously, yesterday was like this huge breath of fresh air. Life is okay, things are going well, work wasn't too awful... everything was good. It feels like it's been weekends since this last weekend/all the bullshit, but it's really only been a few days.

Safe to say I'm all good now. I have time to do things and sleep well. I've been eating better. I've bought all sorts of new things for the new bunny (Hopefully Zorro!) and I learned that Lita actually loves me a lot. My head is so cleared now, on all fronts. I know what I have to do to make things work and what I can't do to make sure I stay out of trouble.

It's so nice to be able to chilllllll out. Everyone was right, it's gonna be alright. Jim Sturgess says so.


xx Take A Sad Song And Make It Better Marz

Last Night

I hit rock bottom. Literally.

I'm Danielle and Katherine, Mort and Louis, Emily and Anne, Kim and Satine.

I Seem To Be Jealous

Of everyone and everything.

They all have time to sleep in, to nap, and to get ready before class. They can afford to take the time to make a nice dinner, to hang out and watch a movie, to actually sit down, and to do personal projects. They have the convenience of someone to love them at any time of the day or night, and they have time to see people. They have time to read things that aren't assigned and to have drama among friends and love interests.

All in all, I guess I'm just jealous because things are changing an aren't what I was expecting. The few pleasures I have in life, guilty or justified, are gone now. I feel like I'm fighting and there's no payoff, like being stuck in the middle of the ocean and trying to swim to some far off shore. I'm like Anne and Katherine combined in a sick and twisted way.

xx You Will Suck The Life Out Of Me Marz

Disney Confessions Say It All

New Shoes

I remember many months ago when I blogged about the notion of walking in the mall and seeing a pair of shoes in the window. About how those shoes are gorgeous and expensive and would look so awesome with that one dress, and how much you want them. But then you ask yourself, why do I want these? I already have my favorite pair of shoes that I wear with that dress. Is it worth the cost of buying them? Is vanity worth it? Vanity, greed... it's all the same.

What I'm trying to say is I don't know what I want in life, and it's consuming me.

xx When You Hold Me Marz

Shit's Due

Shit's due shit's due shit's due in less than eight hours... oh god, so much to do. I just want to sleep. I'm stressing out and eating Pocky and drinking coffee. I just can't focus here... I need to leave. My dumbasses are being loud, and I can't play music or else I'll wake up the sleeping bear. Oh God.

xx The Show Must Go On Marz

The Last Few Days

Have passed in a blur. I haven't slept much, I've skipped eating, I've consumed many cans of orange Monster, and... what is my life.

It's strange, really. The way it all began; so uncertain and with one goal in mind. Work work work. Day one was killer, but the night really took me by surprise, since it was the latest I've stayed up in years. And when I woke up the next morning, I felt odd. What is my life, what am I doing here... Then the circle began again for the next two days. By day three, I felt like Danielle... which worried me.

There's nothing wrong with feeling like her. She's a wonderful person with bright ideals and burning romanticism, but something changed and I knew exactly what she meant when she cried in the ruins. Immediately I transformed from Danielle to Mort... It bothers me how my mind works sometimes.

And then there was that damn movie.

xx You Crazy Fool, I Won't Give Into You Marz

Oh Blog.

Oh how I've missed talking to you in my busy life the last few months. What with a new job and school and cons going on, I haven't had the time for you.

Although a strange thought crossed my mind. Is the sake of convenience worth it? Why are there so many greys in between black and white? Why do I find extreme joy in the idea, but with underlying awkwardness? What if I'm just overthinking it. Maybe I shouldn't have left, because the more I thought about it, the more I realized how much I wanted it. Some friends are out to screw you over, but some aren't all that bad afterall.

xx So How Could I Dance With Another Marz