Two Dates In Two Nights?!

Night One.
Saturday night, Ian picked me up from work with flowers and took me to see Inception. Well we got to the theater early and killed some time by chilling in his car, listening to a song he wrote for me. I thought it was the sweetest thing ever, not to mention that it's a damn good song! Then we saw the movie and it was pretty good, but really long. And then it was time for me to go to Heather's because she was worried. Ha ha. It was a really great night :)

Night Two.
Earlier tonight, Karl picked me up and took me out to dinner. His car is really nice and I love his crazy racing driving! Dinner was really nice and we ended up just chatting for hours until we decided to roll out. After a little more crazy driving, we hung out around Castle Hills and chilled by a pond. Then dad said home by ten and I was home by 9:57. I had such a good night tonight! He was super sweet :)

xx And I Don't Wanna Lose You Tonight Marz

I'm New To This Feeling

Heather calls it playing the field, but I'm unsure.

I'm going out to dinner with the guy from Canes. Turns out we go to school together and after jogging my memory, I remembered him from elementary school. Shit, we were even in the same third grade class! He's taking me out Mexican food on Sunday night, so this'll be fun :)

At the same time, I feel really weird because I've been getting close to Ian, and then I get dumped with another person in my life. I suppose there's nothing wrong since I'm not exclusive to anyone, but it still feels really weird. I feel skanky, ha ha. We'll see how this all turns out.

xx Silently We Wander Through This Void Of Consequence Marz

The Most Exraordinary Day Of Summer

- Learned that Mr. Daffinee has a foot fetish
- Almost passed out during outside band
- Went to lunch with Ian
- Had a great afternoon practice due to a heightened mood
- The guy at Cane's asked for my number
- I gave him the wrong number by accident and drove back to fix it
- My car locked/froze up in the middle of the street
- Made the best shirts ever at Sarah's
- Went running with two pieces of pizza in my hand
- Got a lot done on the show shirt

xx A Dresser Drawer Filled With Sweet Love Letters Marz

So I Got To Thinking.

Scary, right?

I dug through up old post I made about my dream guy that I came up with a while back. And as I was going through with it, I was almost scared at how well things were matching up. It's like, some great force out there reads my blog and gave me practically everything I had listed! Of course, there were a few that weren't covered, but they were dumb things that could be easily looked over. Just dumb attributes.

I dunno, it's really weird. I'm not complaining, though! Tomorrow we're even going out on lunch adventures and we'll see if I bash his face inside out. Shit! What am I gonna wear?! Time to go find clothes!

xx And What You Had Meant To Me Could Never Be Forgotten Marz

Shaman King

After 6 years of following the series, I've finally finished it.

I remember the first time I read it. I bought the Shonen Jump magazine that featured the chapter where we met Faust VIII. This was when I fell in love. And today, I read Faust's death and felt sad, because at the moment he died, it was like the series was over for me.

So of course, I'm sad to be done with this fantastic series, but at the same time, I'm happy to finally know how it ended. Faust joins Eliza, Hao becomes Shaman King, everyone gets old, and Yoh and Anna have a kid. A beautiful series that I carried with me through my adolesence can now be put on the shelve.

But I might pull it down for a quick read sometime...

xx Funbari No Uta Marz

Enigma

Every time I get a message from
him, I get really
excited.

Why?

xx Someone As Beautiful As You Could Do Much Better I'm Sure Marz

It's Like a Repeat Of May

I wish I could remember what it was that set me off so bad last April/May. Something really brought me down and I was at the lowest point that I'd ever been in my life.

Today I felt the same.

I laughed about it so much when I first saw... and then as the day turned to night, I realized something in me wasn't right. I'm not sure what I was feeling earlier... jealousy? Hate? Loneliness? Defeat? Perhaps a mix of those. I talked to Heather and Jamie about it a little, but they were only adding fuel to my fire of anger. Then when I told Forrest about it, he slapped me in the face, so to speak. Which is good, because it really opened my eyes. He had a point, though. Maybe these feelings were mutual.

I don't know. Usually whenever something pertaining to this subject is on my mind, I go pick up that paintbrush and work on the painting from last November. I hope to finish it one day. No one will understand what it means to me, though. No one will grasp why I started it, how I changed it, and why I continue to work on it and make it perfect. It's been 7 months, I know, but it's been a really long and hard 7 months.

Things are finally shaping up in my favor, but if I could have everything the old way, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I don't know. I sat here earlier and drew back on lots of words that were said. I can remember them perfectly. It's gonna haunt me, and I really need to stop this. I need a great distraction.

xx No Last Words To Say, Only Memories Remain, A Farewell Then, My Path Goes Forever On Marz