You Know How I Said 4 Guys?

Make it 5.

Odd one out... I have a boyfriend?!

xx In My Life, I Decide, And It Turns Me On Marz

My Luck Is AMAZING.

I won Jangsara's make up give away.
I have a two hour long art class full of awesome people.
I have fourth period off.
I've made some awesome friends.
I'm making money at work.
I've gotten friendlier with the servers.
I got new three new pairs of awesome shoes.
I designed the band's show shirts.
I've met an awesome guy.

There's probably more I'm leaving out, but I'm too happy to think of them. Senior year is awesome.

xx Passion Tide, An Angel By My Side Marz

When I Draw People

I always elongate the nose if I'm doing a realistic portrait.

No wonder I always look funny in self portraits.

xx Will Someone Please Call A Surgeon Marz

I Love

I love waking up to texts.
I love Dr Pepper after it's sat out for 15 minutes.
I love writing because my handwriting is pretty.
I love laying with my puppy.
I love running my fingertips on paint brush bristles.
I love bundling up when it's cold.
I love statues of angels.
I love chunky jalapeno artichoke dip.
I love jewelry.
I love pretending.
I love being called babe.
I love having rebellious hair.
I love how my summer ended.
I love looking forward to a great year.

xx In The End I Will Always Love You Marz

The Horoscope

Says that my life is awesome right now. It says that I should keep fantasizing about something great in my current life and keep a positive attitude. Not only that, but it says i should go spend money on clothes :)

Yesterday was one of the best ways I could have picked to spend my last Saturday of summer. Waking up early for the garage sale sucked, but I was spending time with my three best friends and making money for the guard. Productive and fun :)

Then I spent the whole day with Karl. We went to the nature preserve, then his house to say hi to mom, then to lunch at Chuy's, then to the Shops at Legacy, then to see Dinner for Schmucks, and then he took me home for work. It was such a spontaneously fun day that I went into work with a good disposition and happy mood.

Which only lasted until he brought his friends up to work! Then all the servers were harrassing me about him because I told them to be nice. The servers are so mean to me sometimes, ha ha. I was working in hyper mode, though. Cleaning like never before! I was sad when he left, but I had closing work to do.

It was kind of nice, though, just sitting at the bar with Matt, Craig, Jeremy, and Bryan. Occassionally Liam, too. but just sitting up there and laughing at the end of the night felt so cool and relaxing. Like the day was winding down...

Until I got home and Annie, Michael, Michael, and I went to go see Scott Pilgrim. I was pretty tired and started falling asleep toward the end. Two movies in one day, jeez!

And now I'm laying in bed on my last day of summer, thinking of my life and how much weirder it's gotten.

And how much better I hope it'll be.

These Show Shirts

Are gonna be super badass.
Not gonna lie.
I am a beast!

So all narcissism aside, today was strange. Like, really strange. I woke up at 7:15 and went to school for practice, only to find that there was no morning practice. Well cool. So I drove home and picked up my sketchbook and took a drive around town, trying to find pretty things to draw. Last stop on my adventure was the cemetery, and I sat down for a good bit drawing a monument.

Forrest calls me and sounded distressed. It's weird that he called me when I was actually awake that early. As if fate wanted it! He came to see me and we sat there in the cemetery as he filled me in on the heartache that is his life. Poor kid, he was cheated out of a good thing. I wish I could have helped him more, but what can you do for the heartache of another?

Then I came home and, truthfully, enjoyed my morning. It was kind of nice being up so early and finding things to do, not to mention that the house was quiet. Just how I like it.

Forrest said people think that I'm more of a girl now. I dress like one and do my makeup like one. And I guess the crazy hair doesn't help, either, because I've felt this horrible wave of confidence with myself and my looks. Not to say that I hated myself before, but I like myself more now. I just want to look good, and if someone likes it, well, job well done on my part. Other than that, I sure don't care! It's my style.

I need to work on my Princess Kraehe outfit. I have the pointe shoes and the tutu, now I just need the crazy bodice piece. HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA PULL THIS ONE OFF?!


xx Don't Try To Fix Me; I'm Not Broken Marz

Practice

Was just awful.

Actually, the day was kind of awful. Woke up at 6:30 to find that we didn't have practice until 12, so flopped over and tried to sleep. Sleep didn't come easily because I had a lot on my mind. Eventually I found it and woke up at 10 to go get my bank account fixed and replace my front plates.

So then practice. I wasn't feeling too hot all day, and one practice started, I just took a turn for the worse. Everything fell apart and Scott even looked at me a few times and asked if anything was wrong or if I was having a bad day.

I said no.

Truthfully, I was having a bad day. Plus I was feeling sick. Plus I'm suffering from a lack of sleep. Plus it's week three and I'm worn out. And plus, I'm super stressed out.

I spent 45 minutes dry heaving in the bathroom and wanting to cry. Today is not my day. I'm going to lay in bed for a bit.

xx And I Thought That You Said Things Were Improving Marz