xx You Come Back Back When They Call You Marz
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Medieval Art
Is very inspiring to me, especially since we're learning about the Middle Ages and Medieval times...
xx You Come Back Back When They Call You Marz
xx You Come Back Back When They Call You Marz
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
A Knight's Tale
Was a really good movie. I'll have to admit, Heath Ledger is one of the few blondes I've ever had the hots for... Sandy blonde, whatever he is. Although I must admit I found his brown hair in 10 Things I Hate About You a bit more attractive... Oh well.
Ever since finishing that movie in class, I've put myself back into that dream world of mine. I remember when I was ten and lived in that castle room and how I always imagined my world around me as my medieval paradise. My house was a castle, shopping carts at the grocery store were carriages, cats were dragons, and the blankets and scarves I wrapped myself in were my regal princess dresses.
It's like a filter only I can see. And since we've been doing so much analysis on the Middle Ages in class, I'm seeing elements of it popping up in modern society. Nostalgic rushes. I feel like I'm ten again, a queen in my own castle, searching for a dress to wear to the ball. I'm also sporting my secret courtly love, my black knight who is always in my heart.
But if anyone knew that this is how I lived day to day, a prisoner of my own imagination, what would they say? I fear I'll never grow up with an imagination like this.
Xx A Lonely Bard Marz
Ever since finishing that movie in class, I've put myself back into that dream world of mine. I remember when I was ten and lived in that castle room and how I always imagined my world around me as my medieval paradise. My house was a castle, shopping carts at the grocery store were carriages, cats were dragons, and the blankets and scarves I wrapped myself in were my regal princess dresses.
It's like a filter only I can see. And since we've been doing so much analysis on the Middle Ages in class, I'm seeing elements of it popping up in modern society. Nostalgic rushes. I feel like I'm ten again, a queen in my own castle, searching for a dress to wear to the ball. I'm also sporting my secret courtly love, my black knight who is always in my heart.
But if anyone knew that this is how I lived day to day, a prisoner of my own imagination, what would they say? I fear I'll never grow up with an imagination like this.
Xx A Lonely Bard Marz
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Monday, March 7, 2011
Porphyria's Love
The rain set early in tonight,
The sullen wind was soon awake,
It tore the elm-tops down for spite,
and did its worst to vex the lake:
I listened with heart fit to break.
When glided in Porphyria; straight
She shut the cold out and the storm,
And kneeled and made the cheerless grate
Blaze up, and all the cottage warm;
Which done, she rose, and from her form
Withdrew the dripping cloak and shawl,
And laid her soiled gloves by, untied
Her hat and let the damp hair fall,
And, last, she sat down by my side
And called me. When no voice replied,
She put my arm about her waist,
And made her smooth white shoulder bare,
And all her yellow hair displaced,
And, stooping, made my cheek lie there,
And spread, o’er all, her yellow hair,
Murmuring how she loved me—she
Too weak, for all her heart’s endeavor,
To set its struggling passion free
From pride, and vainer ties dissever,
And give herself to me forever.
But passion sometimes would prevail,
Nor could tonight’s gay feast restrain
A sudden thought of one so pale
For love of her, and all in vain:
So, she was come through wind and rain.
Be sure I looked up at her eyes
Happy and proud; at last I knew
Porphyria worshiped me: surprise
Made my heart swell, and still it grew
While I debated what to do.
That moment she was mine, mine, fair,
Perfectly pure and good: I found
A thing to do, and all her hair
In one long yellow string I wound
Three times her little throat around,
And strangled her. No pain felt she;
I am quite sure she felt no pain.
As a shut bud that holds a bee,
I warily oped her lids: again
Laughed the blue eyes without a stain.
And I untightened next the tress
About her neck; her cheek once more
Blushed bright beneath my burning kiss:
I propped her head up as before
Only, this time my shoulder bore
Her head, which droops upon it still:
The smiling rosy little head,
So glad it has its utmost will,
That all it scorned at once is fled,
And I, its love, am gained instead!
Porphyria’s love: she guessed not how
Her darling one wish would be heard.
And thus we sit together now,
And all night long we have not stirred,
And yet God has not said a word!
Reading that poem while listening to Shane McDonnell's "Evenstar" was truly one of the most magical moments of my life.
xx You Whisper In My Silent Sleep Marz
The sullen wind was soon awake,
It tore the elm-tops down for spite,
and did its worst to vex the lake:
I listened with heart fit to break.
When glided in Porphyria; straight
She shut the cold out and the storm,
And kneeled and made the cheerless grate
Blaze up, and all the cottage warm;
Which done, she rose, and from her form
Withdrew the dripping cloak and shawl,
And laid her soiled gloves by, untied
Her hat and let the damp hair fall,
And, last, she sat down by my side
And called me. When no voice replied,
She put my arm about her waist,
And made her smooth white shoulder bare,
And all her yellow hair displaced,
And, stooping, made my cheek lie there,
And spread, o’er all, her yellow hair,
Murmuring how she loved me—she
Too weak, for all her heart’s endeavor,
To set its struggling passion free
From pride, and vainer ties dissever,
And give herself to me forever.
But passion sometimes would prevail,
Nor could tonight’s gay feast restrain
A sudden thought of one so pale
For love of her, and all in vain:
So, she was come through wind and rain.
Be sure I looked up at her eyes
Happy and proud; at last I knew
Porphyria worshiped me: surprise
Made my heart swell, and still it grew
While I debated what to do.
That moment she was mine, mine, fair,
Perfectly pure and good: I found
A thing to do, and all her hair
In one long yellow string I wound
Three times her little throat around,
And strangled her. No pain felt she;
I am quite sure she felt no pain.
As a shut bud that holds a bee,
I warily oped her lids: again
Laughed the blue eyes without a stain.
And I untightened next the tress
About her neck; her cheek once more
Blushed bright beneath my burning kiss:
I propped her head up as before
Only, this time my shoulder bore
Her head, which droops upon it still:
The smiling rosy little head,
So glad it has its utmost will,
That all it scorned at once is fled,
And I, its love, am gained instead!
Porphyria’s love: she guessed not how
Her darling one wish would be heard.
And thus we sit together now,
And all night long we have not stirred,
And yet God has not said a word!
Reading that poem while listening to Shane McDonnell's "Evenstar" was truly one of the most magical moments of my life.
xx You Whisper In My Silent Sleep Marz
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Maybe I'm Trying Too Hard
Ever since reading the first book in the Vampire Academy series, I've always felt like this was a series I could connect to. I mean, as an author, one of the most important things is to create characters that readers can relate to. And if there was any character I ever felt close to, it was Rose Hathaway.
We were tough seventeen year old girls. We had long, wavy dark hair and a snarky attitude. We had a penchant for speaking our minds and being bad at holding our tongues. We fell in love with guys seven years older than us and kept it a secret. We craved adventure. We found ourselves taking on more things than we could handle. We were prone to taking bruises and known for arguing with our elders. I dunno, I found it odd that this character was so me. Or maybe I was becoming her? It's hard to tell.
I took Emma for a run today and it was really nice :) Ran down to the cemetery, turned around, then took a looping path all around the neighborhood until we got home. I'm beat :P I finally logged onto dA and found that comments and faves on my Raven costume popped! Always a nice feeling to see my hard work and craftiness appreciated.
Blehhhh, time to go get ready for work. No fun, I want to sit around and do nothing :( I played some Sonic Battle Adventure 2 this morning and decided to raise a new Chao, my shiny light blue fella named Belikov (I'm such a fangirl). We'll see what I can do with him. Ara's still alive... but for how much longer?!
xx Every Breath I Take Brings Me Closer To Forever, To You Marz
We were tough seventeen year old girls. We had long, wavy dark hair and a snarky attitude. We had a penchant for speaking our minds and being bad at holding our tongues. We fell in love with guys seven years older than us and kept it a secret. We craved adventure. We found ourselves taking on more things than we could handle. We were prone to taking bruises and known for arguing with our elders. I dunno, I found it odd that this character was so me. Or maybe I was becoming her? It's hard to tell.
I took Emma for a run today and it was really nice :) Ran down to the cemetery, turned around, then took a looping path all around the neighborhood until we got home. I'm beat :P I finally logged onto dA and found that comments and faves on my Raven costume popped! Always a nice feeling to see my hard work and craftiness appreciated.
Blehhhh, time to go get ready for work. No fun, I want to sit around and do nothing :( I played some Sonic Battle Adventure 2 this morning and decided to raise a new Chao, my shiny light blue fella named Belikov (I'm such a fangirl). We'll see what I can do with him. Ara's still alive... but for how much longer?!
xx Every Breath I Take Brings Me Closer To Forever, To You Marz
GODDAMN PERFUME
So I always keep my double ended Kat Von D perfume rollerball in my purse. Today I went to grab it and the Sinner side popped out and leaked half the liquid out! Goddammit! I love the Sinner smell the best! I always wear it on... Special occassions ;) I want to buy the full size bottle of the spray perfume, but... Not now, maybe when I find the funds after prom!
Work tonight was alright. Victor and I went to Ihop after and sat in "the booth" and had our fave server from last time! She's cool. Got my cheesecake pancakes and she made the whip cream look like a smily face :) That made my night! I'm really sad that Victor's gonna miss graduation for drum corps and that these are the last few months we can see each other before he moves to California. Goddamn I'll miss that kid... We have so much fun together. Hard to imagine I used to hate him!
I've come to realize something. I think I'm at a point in my life when... I want to be mature. Like, not saying I wasn't before, but I'm more serious now. Maybe that's why Sarah bothers me, because she's always trying to be goofy and cute and mildly childish... Soooo jejune. I dunno, I just want to be seen as an adult. Someone who's got their shit together and works hard and does well. I'm short and I'm a girl. Two things that set me back from seeming in power and older.
I always wanted to impress the older people in my life. Mostly Annie, because she was my sister and I thought she was the coolest thing ever. Of course, being thirteen years younger meant I'd never really catch up, but I tried. I listened to her music, watched her movies, always took her old shirts she didn't want... I still do that today. I still wear her shirts, listen to her music, collect Dunnies with her, and more.
I forgot where I was going with this. Wow, I'm even tearing up just thinking about her... I miss her a lot. I guess my original point is that I've always wanted to grow up and be a person. Be accepted. Be an adult.
Xx Tiny Motorcars With Eyeglasses Full Of Stars Marz
Work tonight was alright. Victor and I went to Ihop after and sat in "the booth" and had our fave server from last time! She's cool. Got my cheesecake pancakes and she made the whip cream look like a smily face :) That made my night! I'm really sad that Victor's gonna miss graduation for drum corps and that these are the last few months we can see each other before he moves to California. Goddamn I'll miss that kid... We have so much fun together. Hard to imagine I used to hate him!
I've come to realize something. I think I'm at a point in my life when... I want to be mature. Like, not saying I wasn't before, but I'm more serious now. Maybe that's why Sarah bothers me, because she's always trying to be goofy and cute and mildly childish... Soooo jejune. I dunno, I just want to be seen as an adult. Someone who's got their shit together and works hard and does well. I'm short and I'm a girl. Two things that set me back from seeming in power and older.
I always wanted to impress the older people in my life. Mostly Annie, because she was my sister and I thought she was the coolest thing ever. Of course, being thirteen years younger meant I'd never really catch up, but I tried. I listened to her music, watched her movies, always took her old shirts she didn't want... I still do that today. I still wear her shirts, listen to her music, collect Dunnies with her, and more.
I forgot where I was going with this. Wow, I'm even tearing up just thinking about her... I miss her a lot. I guess my original point is that I've always wanted to grow up and be a person. Be accepted. Be an adult.
Xx Tiny Motorcars With Eyeglasses Full Of Stars Marz
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Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I Just Realized
Today was a big day in my life. I got my college acceptance letter and was really excited for the next chunk of my life.
Too bad no one was home to celebrate with.
Xx She Walks Alone But Not Without Her Name Marz
Too bad no one was home to celebrate with.
Xx She Walks Alone But Not Without Her Name Marz
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Content At Last
I'm laying in bed, wearing Victor's sweats (OH MY GOD THESE ARE SO COMFY), talking to my favorite guy, and just finished Spirit Bound. I'm feeling pretty content indeed.
Today was fun. Went to breakfast with Heather, Jamie and then got to school before 12:30. What I wasn't expecting was to see two ex boyfriends chatting in the same circle of friends right next to my little circle... Weird. Then English was just us watching Groundhog Day, and tomorrow we'll watch A Knight's Tale.
Then after school Victor and I went to the Shops at Legacy to get smoothies and hang out. We went shopping and I realized that Urban Outfitters is for hipsters. Then we went to work to get cheap dinner before practice and he made me drive him back to school in his car! It was trippy... I'm a good driver.
But I left my shorts in my car at the top of the hill and so Victor gave me his sweatpants he was hoarding in the guard room/his closet. And then another Willie night from hell...
But I'm satisfied right now :) I need to read more Vampire Academy! Last book!
xx Would You Like To Rape My Burning Carcass Marz
Today was fun. Went to breakfast with Heather, Jamie and then got to school before 12:30. What I wasn't expecting was to see two ex boyfriends chatting in the same circle of friends right next to my little circle... Weird. Then English was just us watching Groundhog Day, and tomorrow we'll watch A Knight's Tale.
Then after school Victor and I went to the Shops at Legacy to get smoothies and hang out. We went shopping and I realized that Urban Outfitters is for hipsters. Then we went to work to get cheap dinner before practice and he made me drive him back to school in his car! It was trippy... I'm a good driver.
But I left my shorts in my car at the top of the hill and so Victor gave me his sweatpants he was hoarding in the guard room/his closet. And then another Willie night from hell...
But I'm satisfied right now :) I need to read more Vampire Academy! Last book!
xx Would You Like To Rape My Burning Carcass Marz
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