Work tonight was alright. Victor and I went to Ihop after and sat in "the booth" and had our fave server from last time! She's cool. Got my cheesecake pancakes and she made the whip cream look like a smily face :) That made my night! I'm really sad that Victor's gonna miss graduation for drum corps and that these are the last few months we can see each other before he moves to California. Goddamn I'll miss that kid... We have so much fun together. Hard to imagine I used to hate him!
I've come to realize something. I think I'm at a point in my life when... I want to be mature. Like, not saying I wasn't before, but I'm more serious now. Maybe that's why Sarah bothers me, because she's always trying to be goofy and cute and mildly childish... Soooo jejune. I dunno, I just want to be seen as an adult. Someone who's got their shit together and works hard and does well. I'm short and I'm a girl. Two things that set me back from seeming in power and older.
I always wanted to impress the older people in my life. Mostly Annie, because she was my sister and I thought she was the coolest thing ever. Of course, being thirteen years younger meant I'd never really catch up, but I tried. I listened to her music, watched her movies, always took her old shirts she didn't want... I still do that today. I still wear her shirts, listen to her music, collect Dunnies with her, and more.
I forgot where I was going with this. Wow, I'm even tearing up just thinking about her... I miss her a lot. I guess my original point is that I've always wanted to grow up and be a person. Be accepted. Be an adult.
Xx Tiny Motorcars With Eyeglasses Full Of Stars Marz
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