And wow does it suck.
I hate to start off this post on a shitty note, but I'm just in an awful mood. I don't know why... I shouldn't be. I mean, I have the best boyfriend and friends in the world who got me the most wonderful gifts: the most adorable bunny, a killer hamburger phone, a beautiful iPod with kickass accessories, and according to dad my prom dress counts as a gift. Those were really really amazing presents and totally blew my mind. I love those guys, I really really do.
But I dunno. I woke up today (at 7:40) not wanting to go to Six Flags. It was a zoo... everyone and their mom was there. The lines were so long and the park was so crowded that we literally only rode on The Batman and that one water one that we all got super wet on. It was such bullshit and not fun because well one person doesn't like up and down rides, but someone else doesn't like really fast ones, and on and on. I can't stand stupid people, and that place was full of them. I normally love Six Flags when it's closer to the evening and the park is relatively dead, but this was the worst idea ever to go today. It wasn't even my idea. I didn't want to go at all.
And then there was the whole thing about Apocalyptica being rescheduled to the 27th... that's such bullshit. I guess what just sucked most of all was that I took the biggest risk ever in asking dad if I could go and possibly opening up a whole new set of lies and messing up a good sleepover, just for it to be rescheduled. I was really looking forward to a night of me and my guy and some fantastic music, but shit happens.
Ugh, and I have to go to work tonight. I just really don't want to... I have no motivation. And then mom's over there inviting Heather and Victor and Jamie to dinner and it's like WHOAH MOM, STOP. I don't even know when I'll be home for dinner and it's not like we can all just sit around and eat together. I'm quite frankly done with seeing my friends. It's been a fun few days, but I'm done. I want some alone time, some art time, some time to listen to music and get lost in my head.
Not to mention this weekend is just hectic as ever. Guard on Friday, then party at Jamie's, then contest all day Saturday and possibly Sunday if we do well enough. Plus I rescheduled my tattoo for a later date, which also saddens me, but again, shit happens.
I wish I had a good reason to be so sad, but I don't. And I feel bad for it.
xx So Close No Matter How Far, Couldn't Be Much More From The Heart Marz
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