MOAR BREAKDOWNS!

Well I wish I felt like writing about allll the adventures that happened at Matsuri, but I don't. I'm straight up annoyed and irritated right now. Everyone, every single person I talk to or even look at, is bothering me. Am I sleep deprived? Bogged down with work? Post weekend parental anxiety? I dunno. It's like, I have all this work to get done, and it seems like I'm just working nonstop and when I do finally take a break, I can't help but think of all that's left to do.

I don't want to think. My hand is cramped from nights of staying up late making a million precise lines. My hands used to be steady and reliable, but now they're useless for painting and drawing. So that's a bummer, then there's the fact that the house might not be happening, which is also another stress. Then there's the fifty million people to please and I feel like all I ever hear is moaning and bitching. It's like people forgot to grow up and want to act like kids and whine. I'm so tired of it. I had to listen to it this past weekend, I have to hear it in my classes, and I have friends that do it all the time. An absolute nightmare.

I just want to stay in my bed, in my dark room, in the very corner of the wall with my bunnies and computer and just veg out for days. I don't have any motivation to work, and I just feel like crying. I'm glad Dorothy has a long day today, because I just want to be left alone.

And then Dorothy invited me to the pink party at the Jew frat house, with Ellen and Gina, but I probably won't go because people might get the wrong idea of me if I go to a college party.

It's just so hard, everyone always goes out and has all these crazy fun times. And I'm not saying I wish I had gone to college single, because I'm perfectly happy where I'm at, but I always wonder what would have been different. It's college, shit's supposed to get crazy now because it's the only time in your life when you get that excuse. No crazy shit for this guy, I get to stay at home and watch everyone else.

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I can't think straight anymore. I'm tired, frustrated, irritated, and totally dead to the world. Class in three hours.