My mom never has anything nice to say.
Like today: Look mom, my future wedding dress.
"Oh, you'll hate it in a few years and you won't be able to find it."
I colored my hair today!
"Why that color? It's so bright and I don't like it."
Look mom, I love this prom dress.
"How much? Two hundred? Outrageous."
Wow mom, I saved myself a lot of time after finding some art at school.
"Well now since you have so much time, you can spend it doing homework and not running around with your friends!"
Look at what I painted today!
"Oh, it's out of proportion. Her nose is too big."
Well it's no wonder why I don't have low self esteem. I don't get it. She's never said anything nice about anything I do. It's like, she always turns to the negative and never says a simple "good job" or "wow". I just get shitty attitude and rudeness. It's hard telling her about my day when she interupts me frequently to criticize or say something completely unrelated.
It's fine, I don't need her support. I'm not looking for a sign of praise or niceness anymore. I'm used to being on my own and just having to please myself. If I forget that the world exists, I forget how shitty people can be. Good God, I'm in tears again.
I wish I had a mom.
xx When You're Sad And No One Knows It, I'll Send You Black Roses Marz
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