Woo hoo! Tonight I ventured out into Dallas with Victor and Heather to go meet Kat Von D! It was awesome... she was awesome! She's so pretty in real life and so nice! She even signed my makeup brushes along with my book <3 Then we got to meet Rooftop and Jeff from the show, too! It was like awesome piled on awesome. Then we got lost downtown and totally drove down one way streets the wrong way... and to top it off, Victor even went out and bought me Kat Von D eyeliner! That was so sweet of him to do that for me.
Now I can say I've met two celebrities in my life :) First Criss Angel, and now Kat! Ahhh it was such a good night!
Oh my gosh, guess what! So this morning we had our senior panoramic picture and we were in a huge line according to height. So Jen and I are sitting there in line with the 5'3" people and I got to thinking. Karl's about that height, if I remember right. Right I was, because he was a bit of a ways in front of me in the line. So we're filing up on the bleachers and ISN'T IT MY LUCK that I got to stand directly in front of him on the lower row of bleachers. How's that for weird?! That and the fact that Asshat Austin (who should have been on like, the top row. The kid's tall as hell) stood like, four feet away from me on the bottom row for some reason. I think it was because he was late or something. Gross.
Oh, and my grandfather died tonight. I never knew the man, and according to my mom, he was a total dick and made her life hell. I guess I should feel sad, but I didn't know the guy, so I can't feel. I suppose I should feel for my mom.
And then today I realized that maybe life isn't so shitty after all. Sure, it's crappy, but maybe I'm just being selfish. It's a problem I have, where I focus too much on the small picture sometimes and less on bigger things. It's weird how I have trouble talking about my problems with my "best friends". Maybe that's a problem in itself, though. Heather would judge. Sarah would be polite but not make me feel better. Jamie would tell me what I don't want to hear. And so I'm terribly thankful to Ian for going above and beyond anything I would have expected. Despite our unorthodox situation, he's still the most understanding and nonjudgmental person I know. Like, he moved me so much that I almost cried a little in math class today. I'm so glad we realized we don't hate each other like we thought we did, ha ha. Life's strange sometimes, isn't it?
xx Could You Ever Kill The Pain In My Heart Even Though They Say Angels Don't Kill Marz
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