Nooooo One Can Help Yoooou!

Ha ha, Tarja's solo album cracks me up. It's like, so wannabe Nightwish, but with a much more rockish sound to it. I love it, don't get me wrong, but it's also amusing on a different level. Tarja's great! I mean, come on, having your hit single be "I Walk Alone" after you got kicked out of Nightwish? ;)

Enough of the Tarja love. This is my first free Friday night of the year! It's weird... like, all the band kids are like, what do we do?! We have a whole night to ourselves where we don't have to be stuck at a crappy football game, freezing our asses off? Luckily, we only had one cold game this year and not a million, like the previous years. I opted out of getting a letter jacket :/ Kind of lame, since I've been collecting patches for my years and now I don't have anything to put them on. It's kind of a waste of $150 for another bulky jacket... I already have my class ring, so I'm good to go. I might put my patches on my blue bag or something... maybe my flag bag? Gotta find something!

OMG, again with the friend bullshit! I didn't ask for your opinion every time I bring up a friend you don't like. Thank God Sarah doesn't bitch. Speaking of shitty friends, I totally made Michael bleed today and gave Gabriel some more marks. That's what you get for tickling me in the cafeteria and causing a scene. I'm ruthless, I can't help it! And ewww gross, Cedric totally creeped when we passed each other on the staircase. Gross. I might go egg his house if he does it again.

And I dunno, I got to thinking. Lately... I feel like I've tried to be something I'm not. I feel like I'm trying to live a lifestyle that's not mine, dressing like someone that might not be me, and doing things that I've never done before. It's that idea of change in my life again. What I was with Anthony I've totally thrown out the window. What I was with Karl is slowly dying, too. And now that I'm on my own, I'm feeling like I should change things up a little and see what happens. Maybe it's not a bad change? It's not much, just little tweaks. It's funny, because my horoscope says that while I'm naturally charming, I might be trying to change something about me to help my chances of someone liking me, and that to do any changes--big or small--would be counterproductive. Hmmmm...

xx With A Knife In The Shape Of Your Mouth Marz