Seriously. I am so goddamned pissed off that my friends are being such bitches about my relationship. I'm the one that needs an intervention?! Are you kidding me?!
Jamie says they're all concerned for me. They just want me to be happy, and they want what's best for me. Well screw you all, I'm young! Part of being young is experiencing new things and formulating an idea of whether they are "good" or "bad" or "the best" or "the worst". Jamie is at least rational and approached me calmly about this over Canes. I can take that. But seriously Jamie? You're sleeping around with a co-worker and using him JUST for sex and, holy shit! He's 24?! That's a whole seven years older than you! How scandalous! Wow Jamie, I just want what's best for you! Don't get hurt, because then we'd all be so worried! Oh give me a break.
Sarah's silent as usual. Apparently she's giving me "space". Well space doesn't help me, because all this time I've been sitting here thinking she doesn't care or doesn't want to get involved. This morning she told me that apparently Heather wrote me a note. Jamie confirmed this tonight at dinner, saying that Heather wrote a note for me that she wants to read out loud.
Heather.
There's the problem. She's so opinionated and has turned MY LIFE into her business. Look, honestly, I don't like your boyfriend. He's an ass, and he hurts you all the time over immature bullshit! But do I act like your life is my job to patrol? Absolutely not. So quit acting like this. A note, really? Real mature. If you have something to tell me, tell it to my face.
Like today I mentioned something from last Wednesday night and she bitched at me. "Well he shouldn't have given you so much to drink!" Well Heather, I was the one who asked for more and I got sick because I already had a bug in my system and I should have waited til after food. Seriously, It was my fault, not his, so quit acting like he's a bad influence on me. I know Heather. I know she's a two faced bitch (Honestly, that's the best way to put it. She's literally Regina George). I've seen her in action, talking about Sarah or Jamie behind their backs and being a bitch about it. I knew of course that there was probably something about me she had to bitch about... found it.
I'm typing this... and I'm literally almost in tears. My eyes burn, and they're getting watery. That's how mad I am at all of this. I don't give a good goddamn what you guys think of my relationship, because this is what I've chosen and this is what makes me happy. Last year I was a depressed mess, always sad and bitter... and since him, I've felt nothing but just happiness and good things. Finally, I'm not sad anymore and I really like how my life's turned out. This is what I want, this is what makes me the most happy. Selfish maybe, this doesn't concern them.
I'm starting to think they don't want me to be happy.
xx I'm Dreaming Away To A Place Where I Belong Marz
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