Walking to bed at night scares me. I'm shaking. My hands and arms are twitching. Emma scares me. My heart is racing and breathing is hard. Mom called out when the house was dark and it scared me.
What's happening to me? Why am I so... paranoid? Anxious? Why don't I feel safe and calm?
I think it has to do with failure. Failure makes me nervous and causes the panic. I died twice while playing Minecraft and I think that set me off. Same thing happens at work when I mess up. Same thing also happens at home when I mess up. Why do I want to curl up in a ball and cry? I'm so lost, and that's making things worse. Will I wake up and still be panicked? I've been panicking all day since I woke up. Why? What's freaking me out so much?
I'm really scared right now. I can't calm down.
xx My Spirit Of The Sea Marz
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