In light of recent events, I've decided to pull that depressing CD out of my car and create a new one. There's this part of Beauty and the Beast 2 where the beast walks up to Forte and says "I want you to write a song for Belle. Make it... HAPPY!" So that's what my CD is: uplifting, generally good driving music. A step up from easy listening.
Today was fantastic. I had a good nap during first period and did nothing but read in every class. Seriously, I had a good hour or more in every class to just sit back and read. I started (And nearly finished) a book called Beastly, which tells the story of Beauty and the Beast from the beast's point of view. How he used to be mean and nasty and outrageously handsome, but turned into a rose-loving scholar and loving creature. The "Beauty" is a ginger named Linda. I'm envious of all the books they read together.
Look up Sonnet 54. It's a beautiful poem by Shakespeare. Try to find a modern translation.
I can't help but want to smile all the time now. Things are mildly improving all around. It's a like a garden out of winter, when the tiny green sprouts are just starting to burst out of the ground. At the same time, I feel a tinge of sadness because things didn't happen like I had hoped and dreamed. But that's ok, I guess life's just full of these unexpected twists.
I told Sarah we could go to prom together now. I have to figure out who's all in the limo/dinner... I know Heather, Jamie and Sarah want in. I think Alli does, too. And I assume their dates.
Prom. So far away. But so close. It's almost 2010. I think I want to find a new dress. I saw a few gorgeous '50s dresses that would look great on me... kind of pricey, but we'll see. I love the prom and formal dresses of the '50s. So girly and fun. I'm thinking red, since I look good in that. Maybe green. Possibly black. I dunno. At least my mom can do free flowers. Ha ha. There's a plus.
Why am I thinking ahead? I've done a lot of strange things lately. Today, Forrest and I talked trucks for an hour. Comparing this to that, then onto SUVs and more. I didn't realize how much of an opinion I had about trucks. Ha ha. I think pick up trucks look a bit silly, honestly. I'd never get one. They're definitely a man's car. I'd like to get an Explorer or a newer Tahoe someday. In green, of course. Maybe blue. I dunno. Ha ha, when I was a kid, I always wanted a red VW Beetle so I could paint black spots on it. I had some awesome expectations as a kid.
I'm glad that my friends talk about me and ready my phone messages while I nap during guard. "How's she taking it?" "Better than I expected..." Ha ha, talk about talking abut someone behind their back. But they're so good to me, so I can't complain. I have the best friends ever. Even if friend initiation includes spitting in each others eyes and farting on someone's face while they sleep. Good times.
Time to go start Wes's shoes. Andrew and I are supposed to hang out so I can paint his shoes.
Life is strange.
xx Fresh Marz
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