Oh Blog.

Oh blog, you've certainly done me in this time.

It's cold. Much too cold. This room gets no heat.

So glad it's Friday tomorrow. I need the weekend to make money and sleep in. There's nothing I love more than the feeling of a cold room in the morning, but you're all wrapped up in a zillion blankets, so it's ok, because you're really warm. I need me one of those mornings.

I just realized I signed up to work at Sonic, although since I'm not really a part of the winterguard anymore, I don't really have to go work. But I still want to be a part of it, even if I can't perform. I want to go to Austin and all the competitions and do everything but perform. I hope it works out ok. I wonder who is really getting my spot. Scott can't put Lisa there... she's a flag, so she can't just switch spots all of the sudden. I wonder if Problem Child will get it. Or wait, isn't she a flag, too? Surely not Hinch. Oh no no no.

So much change. This is one memorable year to look back on.

I must say, I feel really weird. Kind of nervous, a bit sad, really hopeful, and much more optimistic than I've been in a long time. It's like Requiem on crack, ha ha. Oh winterguard/Mozart jokes. It's gonna be alright. Everything will be ok in the end. Patience is my friend here. Patience will bring me back my friend. If I spoke Italian, the best way to describe myself would be "Anima Libera". Gone is the hate, the sorrow, the ill feelings, the awful glance around the corner. I'm pulling that CD I made after we broke up out of my car and making a new one, a better one. A disc full of happy.

Hopefully I can sleep peacefully now. Not another tear from me. I feel like the ending of a book. I've been resolved. This is like, the ending of the last "Cirque Du Freak" book and "Anatomy of a Boyfriend" combined. In CFD, Darren's soul unravels and he floats up to Paradise, where his loved ones are waiting. In AoaB, Dom yells at Wes for the last time and then she experiences a rush of freedom after pushing him away for the last time. In both books, the main characters found peace and happiness.

Mmm, English class. How exciting!

"Don't you know it's gonna be... alright..." - The Beatles, "All You Need Is Love"

xx Free Soul Marz