Josie by Blink 182 is a great song... It's a good morning song :)
Last night I cried while trying to fall asleep. I just don't know what's going on anymore. Nothing's gone according to plan, things have been screwing up, I'm digging a deep hole for myself, and I'm just hopeless.
I don't know what I want in life.
Apparently, what I want, I can't have. What I dream of gets crushed. My classes are harder than ever and demand a lot more of me than I'm used to, which doesn't already add to every other stress I'm dealing with. I try to be a good person and stay true to myself, but it's not easy. The only time I'm not off depressed and brooding is while listening to Baker's lectures or working in art. Maybe I need all this extra work to distract me, to help me forgive and forget...
And when I look up from my computer, directly across from me on the far wall is a poster from Sweeney Todd. What's the movie slogan? 'Never Forget. Never Forgive.' I won't ever forget, no matter how hard I try. I remember everything and I keep reminders around me. Forgive? I don't know. I believe in second chances, but...
xx Damned and Divine Marz
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