Who Is He?

Jamie and I were sitting in the cafeteria after school and a guy walked across the room a bit of a ways away from us. I've seen him before. He's tallish, with dark brownish black hair that has a long and cute emo flip to it. But he has a youthful face, somewhat timid, and dresses very stylishly. Kind of retro, but stylish nonetheless. Jamie thinks he's a sophomore, but I don't know. I think I saw him in an art room once. I must find out who he is, because for some reason, he fascinates me.

And then there's art class. I can't help but think that Graham is looking at me, but it's because I'm right behind the still life and he has no choice. Ha ha, and he's dating whats-her-face. There's that ginger guy, but there's nothing there. At least, not that I know of. See, I could never love an artist because artists are so quiet and all over the place. Ha ha, fail.

And when is that senior guy coming back to therapy? I think his name was Shawn. I'd like to introduce myself to him. I want to meet new people and gain some confidence, because that's a problem I feel that will haunt me for a long time. I hate how everyone knows everyone and I don't know anyone, or I know them, but they don't remember me. Like Joey. I fondly remember lots of instances from elementary school between us, but I wonder if he remembers me. He knows my name, at least.

Boys boys boys. I'm writing a certain boy a letter tonight. I won't let our friendship fail because of some stupid boundaries and communication. I wonder what he'll think of it... write back, or hate me?

So I definitely walked to my car in the pouring rain, with jeans soaked up to my knees and toting soggy bags. But as I trekked, I sang me some old Britney Spears... Like, it just came out of nowhere: "Cause all I really want is to hold you tight, treat you right, be with you day and night! Baby all I need is time." The song is called 'Sometimes'.

xx Sail Away, It's Time To Leave; Rainy Days Are Yours To Keep Marz