Damn You, Owl City!

So I'm just chillin' in my bathroom, lathering products into my freshly washed hair and jamming out to my Rainy Bus Ride Home playlist when I realize I haven't checked my phone in a while. Just as the playlist shuffles to "Vanilla Twilight" by Owl City, I check my new messages.

And damn, this song has some history with me. Let's establish that first off. It's a song I love to hate and hate to love, a song that I listened to five times in a row on the way to Heather's house and cried the whole way there, a song that makes me hate my life. But it's also beautiful and mellow.

So just as that song starts, I notice that one person stopped texting me and another person started... I knew that song was evil. I dunno, this is a totally trivial and extremely weird connection I'm making, but it's totally there and I see it! Like... gosh. It's almost funny.

And then in the car today, Michael and I discovered how much we love "Rainbow Veins". Which is ALSO IRONICCCCCCCCC. Gosh, Owl City is messing with my mind! How can two totally different songs parallel my issues?! Even more so, I can draw up a giant list of similarities and differences. Actually, I think I might. I don't have anything else to do in Speech, anyways...

xx Once Upon A Time, We Used To Burn Candles Marz

Something

Is exciting.

Me horoscope has been bursting with good wishes lately... apparently, I'm supposed to have a hot chance at happiness this week. I'm supposed to get lucky. Get what I deserve. Find my small pot of gold.

I might have gotten it.

I dunno, lately I've felt so weird... I think I'm happy... then again, I sort of jumped... I kinda feel weird about that. But you know what? I can do whatever I want! It's like trying on dresses. Gotta find the right fit. Gotta hang up the maybes and mull over them for a bit.

I want to feel right again. It's been a long time...

xx Would You Die Tonight For Love Marz

Prom :)

Oh prom! So much fun!

Started out with a day of Sonic breakfast burritos. Then we all went and got our hair did and Sarah took foreverrr! Jamie beat us back to my house, and we all speed-dressed! The boys got to the house while we were all still not even in dresses yet, and since Jamie was the only one fully dressed, we let her answer the door like a good girl.
My make-up came out pretty good! I did it super fast, but it worked like a dream! Looking at it in the pictures... I love it :) We all looked so nice!
After a gazillion pictures, we all piled in the limo and went to om noms. Our limo was leaky :( And after eating, we had a bunch of time to kill, so we went to McDonalds and got dessert. Then off to the prom!

We got there a little after 8:30 and claimed a table. Of course, we all had to say hi to friends and comment on who was wearing what... then we kicked off the shoes and went dancing! And by dancing, I mean grinding for God knows how long. It was weird at first--not gonna lie--but then things eased up once they played GaGa and Ke$ha. Then we all just loosened up and went wild! Host, sweaty, and fun. No one had my dress :)

Then we hit the road and came home. God, everyone left a giant ass mess! I took Troice home after a bit and when I came back, there was a vase of tulips in my doorway and a boy on my bed. Since everyone else had their romantic nights, me and my Cuddle Buddy had sleepover number two and ended up just talking until we fell asleep. And then I went to work and came home and we hung out some more until I had to kick him out for dinner. It was a cuddle-tastic day!

Oh prom :) So fun! Well worth everything!

xx Let Us Be Free, Let Us Sing Songs Along Marz

I FREAKING HATE YOUR SHIRT.

Gah! I hate that damn shirt.

Hmm... I'm not sure if my awesome horoscopes came true... did I find my pot of gold? Did the universe reward me? I'm still waiting...

xx A Beacon In The Night To Call You Back To Me Marz

She Was Like April Skies...

Sunrise in her eyes!

So I just realized earlier that I have a blog and should update it.

Let's see... today I finished 'The Awakening', painted, and wrote Michael's story. The story was actually based a bit off of The Rasmus/"October and April"/Sims 2. It sucked coming up with an idea in a matter of hours, but it worked out pretty alright :)

Yesterday we had the guard clinic. The new kids were fun and one of them even said that I was her favorite! She even wanted to sit by me :) That made me feel so warm and fuzzy. To be actually admired and wanted!

Prom's in a week! I'm so nervous/excited/emo about it all for various reasons.

And... I'm just so all around confused. I don't know what I want, or how I want to feel. Like, given the situation, I'm kind of wanting to pursue because the Beatles told me to do so. But the other part of me just feels awkward. I don't know what to do!

Got my first paycheck on Thursday :) $93! I'm excited to spend it... ha ha. Nah, gotta pay for om noms and hair and I owe my dad $101.51. Grosss. So not fun.

But I was reading old blog entries and noticed small things. I dunno, I'm wanting to date again, because I hate being the odd one out and because I miss the feeling of being loved. At the same time, I'm kind of scared to start dating again just because I don't want to go through the whole hurt phase again. Ugh, I wish I could make up my mind. And I wish creepers and sophomores would quit falling for me.

Oh the throws of young love.

xx Child Of Light, Shining Star, Fire In Her Eyes Marz

I Think...

...my 11:11 wish is coming true.

xx So Hold Me Tight Tonight, Tonight Marz

Um.

The past few days have been weird. Three day weekends are awesome, but weird as balls.

Thursday night Sarah, Heather, and I helped sneak Michael and Gabriel into Heather's room via window and ladder. This little get together soon turned into male strippage and manic laughter. I have a cuddle buddy now!

Tried to fork a house. Didn't work. Got caught. Ran around. Hid behind cars and walls. Made it home. Friday night turned into a repeat of Thursday night, only the boys slept over. Not gonna lie, sleeping in a guy's arms is pretty nice feeling. Got really hot, though, and numerous occasions were in the danger zone, but all was fun.

Worked tonight with Jamie... that was nice, but sooo distracting. Only two hours and pay day is on Thursday! I need the money bad. Gotta pay for prom ticket, hair, wig, and something else I'm forgetting probably. Dinner. That might be it.

Went to Jamie's party in a toga :) That was fun. I love toga parties.

xx Remember My Name And Paint The Darkness With Your Light Marz