WELL BALLS.

My senior pictures got rained out last night. I love this rain, really, but COME ON. NOT ON THE DAY I'M SUPPOSED TO TAKE MY SENIOR PICTURES. So poop there.

I've gotten loads of favorites and group submission requests on two of my pieces on dA. One of them is my famous Edgar Allen Poe painting and the other is a crappy ink drawing I did of Sweeney Todd. People have been faving those like crazy... This is good! It's good for exposure and watches ;) My luck is truly turning around.

Found out why Austin's been ignoring me. I'm sad, cause I've really wanted to talk to him. But these things can't be helped, so I'll wait.

Work was super slow tonight... ugh. Now I'm working on a contest pixel piece. I entered in a Miss USA 2010 doll pageant as Ara Grey representing Texas (Go figure). But I'm greedy for victory and I like a good challenge, so I also entered as Oklahoma. I haven't finished the look, but I'm seeing a black haired beauty with feathers in her hair. I'm going to make this Native American inspired, obviously... I'm gonna name her Lilirara.

Speaking of Lilirara (I'm not original, I stole that from a Shaman King character), I started reading Shaman King again. I stopped buying the manga at vol 10, so I'm really behind. I started re-reading it online, albeit a crappy translated version. I can tell, because certain chapters (Like Faust's first appearance <333) I know like the back of my hand. I started reading at chapter 53 and got up to 135... I think there's still about 100 more chapters to go. But I don't know how it ends, so at least I'll be in for a surprise :)

Something else... oh yeah. So on my way home from work, I was thinking of the actual story of Beauty and the Beast. The story goes that every night, the beast asks Beauty if she'll marry him, and she always says no. Even though she keeps denying him, he still pursues her. Sounds like someone else I know.

xx Eyes Full Of Promise, Heart Filled With Joy Marz

Damn, I'm Freaking Awesome.

So I started and finished a pixel piece tonight... nothing too crazy, but a couture gown I found on Google. I love it so much! And I gave it to a fellow deviant who has inspired me through her gallery and her comments. Good karma? :)

That little bitch stood me up Thursday! He owes me a night of hanging out for sure. Tomorrow I'm gonna hang out with Jamie and put some bleach in mah hurr. Gotta get ready for that purple! I'm excited :) Finally some nice bright purple! Well I think I should wait until after my senior pics... yeah, good call.

I had a dream last night that the moon was full. And next to it was a crescent moon that was spinning and spinning until it exploded and the sky was filled with a sparkly haze. This is what I get for reading about paganism and religion before bed. And to finish off the dream, my favorite person felt the need to show up and kiss me. Gosh, that's twice I've dreamed of his kissing me in the last week. Kinda creepy, if you ask me.

Alright, I have to go finish being awesome. Maybe time for more pixel art? Yes.

xx Time To Take A Holiday Marz

Howl... Seven Days To The Wolves.

Well! Today was exciting. After running dad's errands, I came home and finished my big pixel piece for my new web layout. I also spent a good chunk of time browsing anti-Twilight art on dA. Then I went out for sushi with Annie and finally had a full meal. So tasty!

Then I went out with Austin. I'll have to admit, it was fun having a guy come pick me up and take me on adventures. Of course, we got lost in Frisco, but that's ok. One of our adventures was getting fries and hanging out on the 3rd floor parking lot. It was fun until we got busted by rent-a-cops. Jeez, I got tossed around like a potato sack! Good thing I'm light. It was funny how we established our great difference in height and size... then went on more adventures. Off to the nature preserve, where we walked around the parking lot, met a rabbit, and then he proceeded to carry me back to the car. The little doucher sat me up on the hood and was gonna leave me there while we drove home... no way! Home by midnight and here we are, blogging my life. Oh, and at one point, we went to the Shops at Legacy, which is highly ironic because last time I was there, I was with Heather, Wes, and Anthony on our Hot Date (From Hell) and then got dumped some four odd days later. Irony.

But yeah... lots of things are turning out for the better. It's like this is the summer of new things. Good things. Well, almost, because I still have a couple of things to straighten out with certain people. Ughh. Rats.

"... but I also fancy you."

I dunno, I'm in a good mood.

xx Your Love Will Be The Death Of Me Marz

THE HOROSCOPE!

Ok, so you know how I have this secret that is very important to me? A secret that I'm itching to tell someone but I'm practicing my better judgment and keeping it to myself?

HOROSCOPE SAYS DON'T TELL.

I promise, this horoscope app KNOWS me. It knows I have a secret I want to tell. It knew I was going to meet someone that I haven't seen in awhile. It knew my life was going to turn out for the better. It just knows.

Now, this is also all a matter of psychology. Not to plug or anything, but there was a season three episode of Mindfreak in which Criss Angel read 5 people the same horoscope and each one accepted it because they made it connece to their life in some way. Am I doing this? Maybe. But my horoscopes are too on spot to be mere coincidence.

Anyways. I wore my Dark Passion Play shirt today and because I was going out errand running, I figured I'd do fun make-up. Using my Kat Von D palette, I produced a Dark Passion Play eye using silver, sparkly cornflower, and a deep sparkly slate blue. Of course, this wasn't acceptable for work, so I changed it into a light sparkly brown, then some gold, then a deep plum and light sparkly purple around it. Damn, I'm getting awesome. I should photograph this ho.

Anywho, going out tomorrow and more errands to do.

xx I Wanna Hate You For My Mistakes, I Hate You For Everything Marz

Shit II

Looking back... why didn't I drag it out?!

xx Marz

I Wish You Were Here

Oh my country man, I wish you were here.

Beautiful song. So I made a bunch of mixtapes... two are general upbeat and fun songs, the third is very personal. It's how I saw myself transform over the past seven months... it's pretty interesting, actually. Eleven songs, from the beginning angst ("I Hope You Die") all the way through the acceptance, hope, and then "The Secret". So it's kind of a horrible circle... I dunno, at the same time, it feels terribly poetic and is a total emotional release.

Speaking of a horrible circle... yeah. I don't want to get myself caught in this again. But it's really difficult, kind of like... temptation. Like seeing a beautiful brush set. My mind says no, but my heart says yes. I lay eyes on it and I feel happy and regular and I know that I want it. I'll find a way to get it.

But this isn't the same.

xx I Could Hardly Wait To See You Again, To Feel Your Hands Marz

Shit.

Not again.

xx Marz

Eden Echos In My Mind

Day three and oddly enough, I'm used to it.

I dunno, something's just... weird. I can't quite put my finger on it. My horoscope is going crazy, saying that my future is getting intensely awesome and there are high chances for a new relationship. This is good, right?

Right?

I don't know. Weirdly, I'm kind of happy right now. Like, things just feel natural. Natural and... right? I don't know if that's a good way to put it. Plus I can't get that one thing off my mind. Maybe it's wrong, then. I really don't know what to make of things, actually. Hmm... we shall have to see what's up.

It was funny watching That '70s Show and actually watching it... Kinda laughable.

xx I Felt The Joy Of Living, I Saw Heaven In Your Eyes Marz

The Terrible Secret

Have you ever had a secret that you couldn't tell anyone?

A secret so huge, so rebellious, so taboo, that someone just had to know?

You'd tell them.

But what if the secret would cost you your credibility and friendship?

Then you'd keep your mouth shut and your heart open.

I'm Sorry (Again)

For all the dumb/mean/ridiculous/outlandish/immature/selfish things I ever said to your face or behind your back.

xx Where My Dreams Are Of You My Venus Doom Marz

OHMYGOD

HOLYCRAPWHATJUSTHAPPENEDSOUNEXPECTEDBUTATTHESAMETIMEISAWITCOMING.

Just... wow.

Only Emma will ever know this one. Such a good puppy.

xx I'd Hold My Breath Just To Hear You Sleep Marz

Love In Cold Blood

Dexter is a highly addicting show. I'm in love with it and I'm only on episode three! So much suspense and blood and insanity!

Soooo... school's out. Little Italy went back home. I'm on my second day of guard and shatmonkies, my shoulders hurt so bad. Whatever. I'm not allowed to complain about it because I'm not the only one with shoulder problems.

So this morning Heather, Sarah, and I decided to go get Einstein Bros before guard... and apparently, they said I was flirting with the boy at the register. Well he was pretty cute... and... my foot was just twitching, not flirtatiously popping! Such good friends.

I started a new big pixel piece tonight. It's going to be Innocence eventually, but I based it off a picture of Tarja... which is ironic, because Cadence is of Tarja's likeness and Innocence is supposed to be kinda Anette-ish. Ha ha, whatevs. It looks beast and damn, I'm a frakin' awesome pixel artist, even after 5 years of doing it. I need to update my site and make a new layout! Damn guard's getting in my way...

Lime Lays are amazing.

xx As Sure As The Rivers Reach The Sea Marz

Shatmonkies.

I was so right from the beginning.

Not gonna take this again. And here I thought things would be different... well they sure are, but not in a way I'd have liked. What the hell did I do?

Seriously. I'd rather just be the odd one out.

Heather's right.

I'm eating everything in sight again.

xx You're The Dangerous Kind, Now Look At What You've Done To Me Marz

Still Planning My Life...

Goodnight! As soon as people found out, they hounded me... "Who's the new sucker?" and kept saying that this was so unexpected. Really? Is it so hard to accept that people function? Ha ha, whatevs.

So I was digging around on Black/White Gold's new site and found Patrick! Damn he looks fiiiiiine. Jessie is so cute in her little lolita outfit :) But man do they mean business!

Something else I wanted to write about... I dunno. I wish I could remember. I finished my entry into the Miss USA doll pageant... my Miss Texas looks pretty good for my not having done pixel art in mooooonths :P Oh Ara Grey, you look so nice in pageants. I love dressing you up.

I swear, I'm gonna name my first girl Ara Grey. Well the middle name would be Grey. If it was a boy... well I don't know. I love the name Darren. Or Davin... like my old vampire character :P OR RASMUS! That would be an extremely badass name for my boy. I dunno, I want unique names. Or names with really weird spellings. Those are my favorite kinds of names :)

xx And Please Believe Me When I Say I Love You Marz