Pancake Day

Well today was pretty good! Woke up at 1, went to eat with Dorothy at 3:30, and went to class and hopefully did ok on the quiz. Then me, Dorothy, Tam, Sloan, and Dalton all went to get our free pancakes. There was a long line, but it moved pretty fast and we were in and out relatively fast! I even donated to the charity and felt good.

So now I'm back in my room and have forty thumbnails to do... but after I finish being an assassin. I need more game. I'm too hooked now. I want my costume done, I want to play more game, and I want to be in Florence. I'm feeling too into it... I get really hooked onto things :( I've always been like that. I came to the scary realization that at this rate, I'm not gonna get the costume done in time to take to Florence :((( Oh well.

I've decided it's time to throw away old jackets, jeans, and shirts. Goodbye Corpse Bride jacket, goodbye guard jacket and goodbye middle school jeans. And some old nice shirts. I could probably donate most of it, really. I need a new hoodie since my guard one has died :( I want this one, ha ha. But really. I want it, since I can't find the hoodie with the blades printed on the arms.



xx Well I Swear You Marched In Like A Big Gust Of Wind Marz

DAY OFF?!

I *love* Therion. This is my favorite song from them, and up until just a few minutes ago I had no idea what they looked like until I found that video :P Gooood song. And it's such a badass band name, Therion. Maybe I'll name the future bunny that.

Today was pretty damn nice. I woke up for class, put on clothes, and then realized I wasn't going to make it. So I threw my flannel pants back on, grabbed my bunny grahams, and went back to bed. Mmmm it felt nice to skip design. Then we took the test in design thinking and I came back and bummed around all day. I EVEN DREW FOR FUN. It was incredible! I might even paint for fun here when I'm done blogging!

Drawing was awesome because I raped everyone again. Mmmmm, I love being a boss. It's a really relaxing class too, because I'm comfortable in there and confident, so I can unwind and show that charcoal who's boss. And draw lots of boobs and balls.

Goooooin' to see Dr Case on Thursday. We have a lot to talk about :P Please fix me! I don't want to be broken, and I don't want to scare anyone anymore!

xx Foretell The One, The One Marz

Starbucks!

Why did I have Starbucks at nine thirty... I'm so awake now. And I have class in six hours. And I have to be up in less than five. And I won't be getting to sleep anytime soon, hence the blogging. Blehh.

This wouldn't be a problem if I wasn't in Denton. If I was back in Dallas, with my man and my kitty and my share of the blanket, I'd be passed out in no time.

Speaking of being passed out... I think I'm gonna go try and see if I can get in to see Dr Case or Julie this week. Cauuuussseeee I'd rather be safe than sorry, cause hypoglycemia is scary shit. Gastrointestinal problems is one thing, but this is scarier due to it's ability to be life threatening. And maybe it was just nothing, but I'd rather get bloodwork done just to be safe.

Unrelated, but I'm on a costume craze. I saw a cool historically accurate Aurora illustration, and I realized how much I want to make it! Hard? Yep. Badass? Definitely! And then how much I want to work on my assassin stuff. Getting the white stuff done is half the battle! Leatherwork... that's another issue :P Oh I just want to be an assassin. I want a million costumes for no other reason than to have them :P Some girls need bigger closets for more clothes. I need a bigger closet for my costumes.

xx I Checked Your Teeth And Warmed Your Toes Marz

MARCO, MARRY ME.

LEAVE YOUR WIFE, BRING YOUR HAIR. I'LL LOVE YOUR KIDS. JUST BE MINE.



1, 2, 1, 2, 6 6 6... He is a god.

xx Princess In The Tower Marz

First World Problems

So the photoshoot pictures are up :) Damn they came out good! I looooove them. I only wish some of my Raven ones had better wig styling, but they all came out so good. Over the past few days, I think I became more and more obsessed with cosplay :P It's just so fun! I have three nice wigs that I need to get foam heads for, that's one thing to get soon. And then I want to make a dress form! So much to do!

It's funny, day three of no pills and I'm in a surprisingly good mood. Who knows, maybe tomorrow will blow :P if I can get through the morning's two tests and sculpture fun, I'll reward myself with a nap and maybe some Sims! Or maybe a nap annnnd... some room cleaning. My desk needs help.

But then I got to thinking... holy shit, we're getting a house. My art desk is too small to fit my computer on... seriously, the screen is as big as the desk. Maybe I can find a cheap one on craigslist and spray it. I'm not sure if I want to try and fit in the bunny pen, bed, black dresser, and the tiny desk in my room. I guess I could keep the tiny desk in the room and we could invest in a big work table, possibly also from craigslist. Oh, I'd love to get an easel too, for the studio/for the rest of my life. Like a nice sturdy one. Mmmm, one day.

This is so scary! All we have are couches so far! I think it's time to start hitting up garage sales ;P Or I could use Annie's furniture from her college years... we still have it! It's sad how excited I am to be a woman and put together a house :) I looooove it! And I love our idea of Sunday dinner, that'll be fun! We need to theme it.

xx I'd Probably Dress Up In You Marz

Dear Face

Thank you for staying clear until the photoshoot, and then blowing up acne the day after. Seriously, that meant the world to me. Love, Marissa.

While I'm not listing to both versions of "Don't Cry", I've been slaving away all weekend getting shit done. So far, I've finished everything on time for class, now I have one last thing to do, and it's probably the most important one :P Plus I have to study on top of that, oh God. Luckily I got me some Starbucks to keep me company!

Well the photoshoot was horribly fun. I wish I had a million more costumes and a million more minutes! Although he only posted two so far, I'm just in love with them. Everyone looks really good! Tomorrow he said he'll have them all up, and I know it's gonna be so badass :) I'm excited to see the ones with both me and Heather, cause I bet those ones are funny, based on the few he showed us there. I love it!

And then I had birthday fun with my favorite person, and all too soon the weekend ended and put me back in boring college land. Not to mention it's that week again and I'm having the craziest mood swings! Like, ridiculous mood swings. Ughhhhh. It needs to be next week already :P Let's see... nothing else all that big to talk about, I just have essays to go finish writing.

xx Imagine A Perfect Hideaway Marz

Don't You Cry Tonight

So my girl Marina V posted a free download of her covering this song, and it's gorgeous! Then I went looking for the original and I totally dig it. Soooo mellow and pretty, I'm in love :) I might have to download it for my walks to class, cause it seems like a good morning song!

Today was a nice day of essay questions, food shopping, nail painting, makeup testing, hanging out, and sister fun. Oh my God, I totally stuck my elbow in my beans at Guappo's like a total tard. Total tard. It was Epic, with a capital E. Just a short post tonight, time for bed :)

xx I Still Love You Baby Marz

My Favorite Cards

xx And I Watch As Blood Spills Down Your Arm Marz

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY LOL.

What a day it was. Woke up at six thirty (And damn, that was hard. My pillow was too comfy), got pretty, scarfed down a cheese danish, picked up Heather, and went to the shop. We spent the whole morning in Coppell and Irving, which I hated driving through. Highwayyyyys get annoying. After some Taco Bueno Muchachos, we went back to the shop for Carrollton orders. It was really fun seeing how surprised and happy the girls were to get big sparkly arrangements :) I wanted to steal a couple of them... I liek flowerz.

I think I made a little over a hundred, and found out that Heather's mom needs extra help at the store! Count me in, I need a job! This will be so fun, but I need to go dress shopping severely. I want to get a nice white button up shirt to wear with my pinstripe skirt. Oooooh I can dress nice :) And when I dropped Heather off, there was a big red Kitchenaid mixer on the porch for her from Gabe. Lol, doesn't even have a kitchen.

And then I rushed back to Denton to spend my wonderful night in a classroom for three hours. Dorothy just left for a hot date with Jack. It's not fair, she always looks good in her outfits. Maybe it's just a hipster thing? I noticed she always looks good in dresses because she's tall. When I shop for dresses online, the models are all super tall and the dresses look so great on them, but dwarf me down. Goddamn short legs. So it's just me, the Rainy Bus Ride Home playlist, and the internal conflict of putting on sweats.

I can't tell if I'm a little bit down or just tired. Or maybe hungry. I just don't feel right.


xx Sleeping, Weeping, With You Marz

The Piano

So I just watched it again, for like the millionth time. Seriously, I must really like it, or else I wouldn't keep watching it. But then I asked myself, why do I like it so much? It's a warped love story, like, really warped. Ada's in an arranged marriage to... I don't even know his name. Stewart. But things don't click well with them, which can be expected. But then Baines comes in and falls in love with her, setting the triangle.

I like Baines, though. His first comment about her was that she looked tired. It's like, he actually cares for her well being and wants to deeply love her. It's weird, but you can tell by how he touches her and talks to her. Sure it was a dick move of him to have her earn back her piano by hiking up her skirt and letting him his her neck and whatnot, but... I guess she fell for him back :P

And then there's her husband being a controlling dick. He's too strict and emotionless for my liking. I understand him being angry at Ada cheating on him, but still. He goes a little psycho at the end.

Allllll in all, I'm glad she chose Baines. He really seems to love her, and they look so happy in the end! Before the whole watery grave bit. But the whole love story starts with Ada's love for her piano, which Baines had, therefore, Baines had her love the whole time. Coooool. And because I love Nightwish and the soundtrack from The Piano, here's Nightwish covering the song :P I need to get this, ANETTE SOUNDS LIKE A GOD.



xx Kiss For Your Heart Marz

Bed... No Me Gusta

I'm sitting here with a bottle of water, clean face, clean eyes, and a clean body. It's been a stressful week, mostly due to what I'm assuming is caffeine withdrawals, but I think after I pick up a few 12 packs at home this weekend, I'll be back to normal. I also need to find my vitamins and start taking them...

Today was a nice day! I went and got my wig cut, and although I was worried at first, they did a good job and it's very workable now. Not 100% how I'd want it, but very close and very good. I Got2B'd the peak so it's be easier to wear and style, now to just straighten it and buy a wig cap! Then I went and had a wonderful night with a wonderful guy, complete with epic dinner and lots of laughing. It definitely made the shitty week worth it, and I'm back in relaxed mode. Not to mention I got that badass mermaid ear piece! Everyone thought it was so cool and I love love love it! Definitely gonna have to wear my hair up more often so the world can see my badassery :) After a drive home in the rain, I came home and hung out with the friends in the studio, then came back to my room to clean up head to toe. I feel so nice now :)

Tomorrow... ugh. Critique on shitty wire sculptures and then learning InDesign after. And then! I get to skip a delicious Bruce sandwich (which isn't really all that magical, other than being better and healthier than Kerr food!) to come back, pack up my clothes and drawing pads and laundry, and drive home to have Julie poke around at me and give me a physical. AND THEN A LOVELY WEEKEND WITH THE PARENTS, YAY. No thanks, I'd rather have a nice weekend in Dallas.

xx Valentine Is Done, Here But Now They're Gone Marz

I Am Anger.

I wish I could remember who told me about making friends. Who ever it was, they told me it doesn't matter what friends you had in high school, because it's the friends in college you'll end up living with and working with and ultimately growing up with as an adult.

And then there's some people from high school that worry me because they haven't grown up. They're still the petty little pathless people with no drive to work, no pride in what they do, and no plans for the future. It was different in high school, because we all had the goal of passing senior year and getting into college. Well now that we're all past that, it's now the time to chose a career path and work towards it.

It worries me that some people I know don't have a plan. And I don't mean that in an "I'm Better Than You" way, I mean it in general concern. But you know what? We're all adults now, we need to grow up and make choices. I'm doing things for me, and you should be doing things for you. We're on our own now, and things change. Life sucks sometimes, and then sometimes it gets to an amazing point. No one said anyone's life was gonna be easy, and it worries me that I know people that expect life to be perfect and breezy. I'm a firm believer in working hard and making smart choices and planning ahead. Sure it doesn't work for everyone, but that just means you should push even harder.

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I'm just generally pissed at the behavior of some people.

xx We Are Home, We Are Where We Should Be Forever Marz

Two Lives Have Begun Now

Two hearts become one now!



Oh my God this might just be my favorite part from the musical. The magic of the scene lies within the words they have for each other, not fancy transformation effects. I like how the last little bit is the same tune as "If I Can't Love Her", my probably favorite song from the production all together. Whoah, did I just really name a favorite song?!

Oh listen to that beautiful duet, I love a good duet. That might be my favorite thing to hear music-wise. WHY IS THIS MUSICAL SO ROMANTIC. Oh, his voice is dreamy. I'd even say it's almost as godly as Marco's.



Time to go day dream some more... or art. I feel inspired.

xx Belle Look Into My Eyes Marz

Ghost Wandering This Earth/500 POSTS!

My *favorite* Marina V song. It's the song that popped up on my Pandora and made me loooooove her. I swear, every time I hear this song, I picture it in a movie where a couple is just slow dancing without a care in the world. I wish the whole song was on the video, but, oh well. I'll just go listen to it some more. It's funny how it's not a romantic song at all, but it sounds like it should be one. But then again, that's just me.

Well the drawing department found my drawing, thank God! I'll pick it up tonight. Dorothy's mom is getting one of her still lifes framed and she asked me where my parents put my art work. Well, they don't put it anywhere. They never liked my work and it'd clash with the decor, anyways. So it'll all sit in portfolios forever and rot until I die and my work is recovered and I become famous postmortem. If I ever have kids, they're getting so much art on the walls.

That's about all for today. I got a good nap in and now while I watch Beauty and the Beast, I'll do some sketches I need for class. Seriously, I just want to watch The Enchanted Christmas, but it's not on Youtube! I don't care what people say, I love that movie. Belle is such a bamf for making Christmas anyways. Maybe I can trade in one of my three Beauty and the Beasts for one Enchanted Christmas :P

OH AND HAPPY 500 POSTS! I'm such a loser.

xx In A Shack By The Sea, I'll Sit Back Sipping Tea Marz

I'll Reeeeead Him Stories!

I'm on a super Beauty and the Beast kick today. And a Bedknobs and Broomsticks kick, too. And maybe a little bit of a Sleeping Beauty kick. I can't help it! I just love to sing my favorite musicals. Sing in the car and when no one is in the room.

Tomorrow I have a pentooling test that I know I'm gonna fail. It's a workday for the stupid wire sculpture and I have to go do some interior and exterior drawings before night class. I didn't have time to stop by Tom Thumb and get salami like I wanted, so I'll just have to wait til Thursday. EEEW THURSDAY, BOOOOO PHYSICAL. I hate girl physicals. Blurghhh.

Well the highlight of my evening was eating a giant wad of wasabi for $20. Oh my god, did it burn. My throat was all thick and coated and the acid was killing me. Suuuuuper heartburn. I came home and chugged that carafate and took the strong pill! That was one of the most uncomfortable things ever. But my friends got a kick out of it :P

Ha ha, I found this Disney Confession today that said something about watching Beauty and the Beast on Valentine's Day to feel loved. I will be doing that before my history class, with a forever alone sandwich. Oh wait, I guess I mean after, since I'll be spending all day delivering flowers. Moneyyyyyyy. I had something on my mind earlier I meant to write about, but I can't remember. Hmmmm. More musicals for now.

Tonight I realized that two guys that I dated are nearly identical. Seriously. They do the same thing that irritates me, although it doesn't have to now, still does out of habit. I can't tell if I send out some sort of vibe for dating that kind of guy, or if dating those two was just bad luck. Not that it matters now, but I have a horrible problem with looking back. Guess I learned what I like and don't like... and I love what I have now :)

xx Try To Find Something Good In This Tragic Place Marz