More On Cosplay

So I came across a fabulous cosplayer's take on Kraehe and I fell in love with it, despite not being anime accurate. But then I got to thinking... my costumes are so blahhh. They lack details and accents, but that's because that's how they actually are. Hopefully my Ezio can be a break from that and be filled with all sorts of delicious little accents! I'm constantly trying to figure out how to sew things, and getting too excited :P

I have boots and a shirt and shorts and two tunics! I feel so done now! If I can get the belt buckle baked soon, I can sand and paint it at school. Mmmm. I love that belt buckle, I can't wait to go back in with the wire and support it. I'm such a dork! Or maybe I just love being crafty. Probably both.

xx And A Figure Whose Clutches Were Iron As Much As The Bells Marz

AWWWBHUNNIES.

So... I want another bunny. It's not even funny how bad I want another one. Mostly for Lita to have a friend, and because rabbits are freakin sweet. I was looking for breeders in north Texas, and came across a rabbit sanctuary. WHICH MADE SO MUCH MORE SENSE. It's like the same with dogs, don't buy them from the pet store or from a mill or breeder. Duh, adopt a little guy who needs a home! So the sanctuary's site had a lot of cute single bunnies, but no breeds I had at the top of my list. A really want a Dutch, but no Dutches for sale :P It's pretty cool, $125 and that covers their fixing!

I'm only worried Lita might be too aggressive while introducing them, but hopefully a friend will make her happier. OH MY GOD, TWO BUNNIES. Double the cute. The sanctuary's only in Garland, and might be worth the visit. I'll even let Lita pick out her own friend! I need to go get her two litter boxes though, one for poop and one for hay, so I can get that big bottom tub out of there. I guess with two bunnies I should double the space? Time to find another pet pen.

OH MY GOD LOOK AT ALL THESE CUTE BUNNIES. SERIOUSLY. All of them except for like, Effie, are cute as hell and adorable. I want a girl bunny. Holy shit. I want them all. BUUUUNNNIIIIEEESSSSSSSS.

xx On A Long Road, Miles To Go Marz

SUNSET APPRECIATION MOMENT

Not really, but that's what Jessie used to make us have every morning in guard. So this song popped up on my Pandora and in fifteen seconds, I knew exactly what song it was. Probably one of the best film scores ever, really.

Such. A. Good. Movie. I want this. It's just so visually stunning and deep and beautiful to listen too. I could listen to the soundtrack over and over and over again. And then we have this guy:

Freakin' Rocky in Florida. I like that this one has a fun parodied intro!

Back to making patterns and tags.

xx And Take Away Our Sorrows Marz

Right Now

Right now I want

- Ice cream, maybe coffee or strawberry or lime
- Sour gummy worms
- Raspberry lemonade
- Ten more pairs of sweats
- A sewing machine that works
- Someone to do my design thinking homework for me
- The UTI to go away
- A lower bed with more pillows
- To watch my bunny hop around

xx Found Her Luck In Wells Marz

Another Friday At Home!

It's another Friday afternoon. I'm sitting at home, with a can to my left and a dog to my right, watching Beavis and Butthead Do America, and keeping an eye on the laundry. Hopefully I get it all done before I have to leave, but.. I'm getting doubtful. I just want to go take a shower, no, a BATH, so bad, but I know as soon as I do, the repair guy will show up. If he ever shows up. I feel so sick-gross, and my hair is all sorts of frizzy shapes. I should get my hair cut when I have to come back for my physical, might as well!

I should probably go work on my belt buckle and get it baked. Jess came in last night while I was sculpting it and high fived me! Yes! Fellow Assassin love! And then she told me to get out of comm design and do drawing and painting. Everytime she tells me that, I get sad :( Her job is to guide us, and I wish I could do both. Jess, Y U make my life so hard?!

I was reading about gemstones and rocks earlier and it was cool. I learned lots of odd little things, like how Amethyst means "no intoxication" and was believed to protect the wearer from getting shitfaced. And how gems are synthetically made and stuff about blood diamonds and all sorts of cool things. Way neat. It only temporarily distracted me from my impending sickness! Casey's getting sick with the same thing, so I don't feel as shitty :P But still. It needs to go away and take the damn UTI with it.

Soooooo... I guess now it's time for moar sculpting. Then dinner with my favorite guy, lunch with my favorite friend, and possibly house hunting with dad. Then work, ughhhhhh. More Illustrator.

xx Let's Forget About Tomorrow Marz

Life

Is pretty good right now.

For me at least. And I know that's a selfish thing for me to be thinking and saying, but I've finally got everything that I want and makes me happy, and nothing is bringing me down. Well, except for the bladder infection. FIRST ONE THIS YEAR! Eight more to go before Christmas. But other than that... I'm surrounded by good things. No stress, amazingly awesome guy, adorable pet bunny, made it into comm design, getting a house... things are just looking great.

The only thing that sucks is my hair today :P It needs trimming baaaaaaad, but I don't have time to get in to get it cut this weekend. Booooooo. I might go start my assassin belt in the meantime.

xx She'll Be Right Here In My Arms Marz

12:25

Alright, so I do have class in seven and a half hours and I probably should sleep, but I'm just not there yet.

So recently I've taken a break from Sims and delved back into the cubular world of Minecraft. You know me, just building another castle, no big deal. We'll see how long this little phase lasts! Man, tomorrow's the start of my first full week back. It's a day of horse head sewing, pen tooling, and drawing with that weirdo. Seriously, weirdo. And maybe a nap if we don't go look at the house! I'm glad dad likes it, because me and Dorothy *love* it to death. I can't wait to decorate and paint and be a good woman and make this an awesome house!

Tomorrow I need to call in and see if I can get a physical soon, because I need it to get another year of pills. Weird how fast it's gone by, seriously. And I need to ship that box fast. That's what I'll do tomorrow, then :P

I swear, maybe it's just me, but I'm seeing all kinds of relationship shit all over Facebook. Is this the time of the year that people break up, get engaged, have fights, and buy promise rings as 18 years olds? It's overload. I wish I could turn all that off, seriously. Some of it is just straight up sickening. Do you really want everyone to see that stuff? Guess so.

What else is on my mind... I dunno. My legs are gonna die tomorrow from the intense workout today. Even walking upstairs tonight killed me! It feels really great to workout, though. Change of scenery, new clothes, the satisfying feeling of having better looking legs someday... I like it! Might as well enjoy a free gym membership while I have it :P I'm diggin' this cardio stuff and the elliptical I've been using is fun! It's great cause the machine adjusts resistance for me to build up strength like a boss. SWEATING IS FUN.

xx You Were Mine Until The End Of Time Marz

Dear Mom

You always yell at me when I'm trying to bite off more than I can chew, or do more than you think I'm capable of. Well news flash, I like to think big. I have big ambitions and high hopes and huge goals, and I don't care how big they are, because I'm gonna make them happen. And then *I'll* laugh when *you* realize that I was right all along.

xx Where Is The Wonder Marz

First Day Of New Classes!

It's been a few days, hasn't it?

Well today was the first day of classes, and I only had my history of graphic design class with a professor that should be a weatherman :P The class will probably get cool cause it's lots of history! Tomorrow I have design at 8, design thinking at 10, and then drawing at 6. "Busy" day technically, but we'll see how bad it is. I'm not looking forward to the computer class... what if my little guy can't handle the heat?!

My assassin shirt came in today! I'm excited to try it on when I go home Friday. I also really want to go get my machine fixed so I can start the damn sewing already! I want to be an assassin! I want to make the hidden blades too, but if I did, they'd have to be like, foil covered foam or something soft like that so they won't get turned down by the weapons check guy. Maybe in the meantime I'll go make Ezio's necklace or something... that's just some thick brown cord and some silver beads :P Oooooor I could start sculpting the belt!

I'm just all lethargic lately. And I'm having the hardest time sleeping, so... I'm worried I won't wake up tomorrow :P I don't know what to wear, either! What if the kids pick on me?! Girl problems. Maybe I'll eat some popcorn and read Cosmo to lull me to sleep :P Or just listen to two beautiful men make beautiful music from a beautiful movie score.


AND OH MY GOD, THIS ISN'T HAPPENING, IS IT?!


xx Crawl Inside My Last Fire Marz

Two Guys

Two guys have called me perfect.

One was right,
the other was wrong.

xx And It Seems Like A Perfect Fit

I Am Officially

The worst Nightwish fan ever.

So I'm on Youtube watching the two music videos for "Sleeping Sun" and noticed they were two different recordings, neither of which I was familiar with. So I search for the song on my iTunes and... HOLY SHIT I DON'T HAVE IT. I have four verions of it, a karaoke, Anette singing, a techno remix, and a piano cover, but not of Tarja singing the original.

Turns out it's on the Oceanborn album which I know I had at some point, because all the songs on there I recognize and know by heart. So where did it go, and why isn't it here anymore?! I CAN'T BE MISSING ALBUMS. Well I am missing the Made In Hong Kong album, too. Ughhhh. I'm gonna be pissed if I go open my Lokijirja box and don't find Oceanborn in there.

xx Oh How I Wish To Go Down With The Sun Marz

Moar Costume!

After running around in my under tunic last night, I got really happy and felt one of the biggest sense of pride I've felt in a long time. Even though my measuring was a touch off and I *COMPLETELY FORGOT TO ALLOT FOR SEAM ALLOWANCE*, I'm still too proud of it, even in its pinned together stage. Today I started cutting the white piece for the upper tunic, which I'm hoping will be ok. The main measurement I use to base all the percentages off comes from my waist, and on the under tunic, the thing doesn't fit all the way around my body right. Partially because of the boobs and my slightly off cutting. Well that's ok since it just sits under shit and no one's gonna really see it.

So when I got to the upper tunic, I figured, well this is gonna be sitting on top of the under tunic AND a shirt, so I might as well make it a few inches wider and hope to God it works out :P AND THIS TIME I ALLOTTED FOR SEAM ALLOWANCE! The hardest part is just figuring out the math involved in the pattern really... now I have to figure out the hood, and there are *NO NUMBERS* for that. Seriously. It's all estimations and I have general shapes to work with. BUT! I'm gonna be a badass and sew combs onto the red layer of the hood so the hood will stay on my head :) YAY GUARD for giving me that idea!

So my current agenda before I take my sewing machine in to get it fixed is: Cut the red fabric for the upper tunic, cut the shoulder pieces, figure out the hood, and go find some pretty gold trim and get to work painting the lapel of the under tunic. EZIO, Y U NO HAVE SIMPLE COSTUME?! Once I get the tunics done and sewed, I'll be happy as a clam. And I found my brown dance shorts and ordered the shirt, so I'm halfway done! Then after that, I'll work on the sash (Which is gonna be easy anyways), and then... tackle the cape and pauldron. Last comes the sculpting of the belt buckle and figuring out all the belts that cross the body and how to attach them. And then the damn vambrace and the boot covers. And then make the necklace. HOLY SHIT, LOTTA WORK.

I will dream of sewing and Italians tonight. Oooooh, Anette posted this on her blog saying she did vocals in it. I was sad to see she wasn't in the music video, but she sounds amazing and although I've never heard of the band, I really dig this!


xx 40,000 Men And Women Everywhere Marz

Mermaids?!

So I don't know what it is, but I've had this fascination with mermaids for the past month now. And the irony is that I don't feel safe in water, nor can I swim :P There's something magical (Go figure) about them. I guess it's that old part of me that loves mythology and monsters and pretty things. I'm sure Nightwish might have had something to do with this, with "The Siren" and "Turn Loose The Mermaids". Or like how when you're a kid (Or 18 year old me) and you scoot down in the tub so you can lay your head in the water and have your hair flowing everywhere, like a mermaid.

I don't know where I'm going with this. Maybe I'll go draw some fish. That's all they are really, are pretty fish.

xx The Mermaids You Turned Loose Brought Back Your Tears Marz

Books

This year, I want to buy all of these books. I want to read more:

Torment
Passion
Rapture
Fallen in Love, all by Lauren Kate

Bloodlines
Vampire Academy: The Ultimate Guide
Vampire Academy: The Graphic Novel, all by Richelle Mead

Lolita by Valdimir Nabokov

These are the books I'm vowing to buy and read this year. And I want to reread the first half of House of Night since I have the books, and then buy the other half of the series because I can't remember where I left off. And if there's time, I'm going to reread Vampire Academy...

xx Stories About Heroes Who Overcame Their Deepest Sorrows Marz

SEWING MACHINE

Y U NO WORK?!

So Heather helped me open up my beautiful new Singer Athena 2009 sewing machine tonight aaaaaand, since she has the Curvy model which is pretty much the exact same, she taught me how to thread a bobbin and thread the machine. Well something's not right, because it keeps beeping after a few second of sewing and when I look at the underside of the fabric, it's all nested and gross. And based on my research, this means there's something wrong with the threading on the top of the machine, but I've done everything exactly how it says to do online and in the manual! Upper tension, Y U NO work either?!

Bahhhhh. Now I'm all sad because I wanted to sew, or at least, spend tomorrow sewing with Heather. If anything, I'll just use her machine and hope for the best :P But I feel sort of good because even though the machine is shitting on me now, it looks so cute in its rolling bag!

Ha ha, funny how I was gonna clean up the area around my desk, but got distracted during a nostalgic rush back to when me and Leigh went to go see HIM waaaaay back in 2007. Good times, good times. I AM THE SACRAMENT SIDEKICK! You know, I haven't listened to HIM in a really long time... but when a good song comes up on my shuffle, oh that's some good stuff. Killing Loneliness and Scared to Death and The Sacrament, oh my!

I might just go to sleep now out of boredom :P Tomorrow's a nice free day...

xx Paint You My Soul, Scarred And Alone Marz

My Dog

Is like a shadow. It's funny, she truly is my dog. We both look good in black, we both have big brown eyes. We both like to lay around and be lazy, and we both don't need much to be happy. We both have trust issues, but end up loving those who we trust dearly. We both prefer to sit away from people, and we both eat pretty much the same dinner most nights. We're both pretty chill, but when we get excited... we get excited.

It's funny, because I've had Emma since 5th grade and never really had a pet before her (Ricky and Penny don't count because they were Annie's pets and died/were set free before I was five or six), and it's weird because I feel like I've had her forever. It's odd to think she's turning nine this September. She's getting old, but I feel like given her excellent health and good diet, she'll live to be an old dog. But sometimes, I imagine what if, and then I instantly get all watery eyed. Like it seriously doesn't take much and I'm already spiraling down.

But when I think of Lita in that situation, I don't get all sad. Maybe it's because she's still new to me and because dad's death threats on her kind of make her death seem trivial. I dunno. All I know is I love my animals so so sooooooo much. I love when Emma's sleeping on the foot of the bed in the morning, and when she sees that I'm awake, she crawls up to lay next to me and cuddle. So. Cute.

Bahhhh. I should go to sleep.

xx One With The Waves, Ocean Soul Marz

First Post of 2012!

Well I'm sitting on my bathroom floor and blogging, mostly because my computer was sitting on the sink while I was showering and I might as well pop a squat here and get out what's on my mind. Emma's looking at me and making puppy sounds, trying to get my attention. I missed my baby girl!

Well now I'm in that awkward unpacking state where I don't want to unpack at once, but do it over a series of days... I did pull out my new soap and perfume, though :) The soap smells *amazing* and even comes with a recipe for raspberry sorbet! Yumm. Annnnnd! I'm so glad to finally have my first big girl perfume in a glass bottle! I only got the small size, but we'll see how long this lasts me. I smell so pretty now! And I got all the dirty clothes out of the middle of the bag, so now it's just oddball stuff on the ends to deal with, ugh.

I have quite the busy week ahead of me. A day with the man tomorrow, dentist and lunch with Jamie and possibly hanging out with Victor on Tuesday, then helping Crystal move on the 4th, then babysitting on the 7th, and the DSO concert on the 10th. Somewhere in all of that I have to do laundry and I'd like to make some art! And buy bread and salami before I move back in ;P I'd also like to throw out old clothes while I'm home and OH YEAH! I still need to learn how to sew! Ha ha, I have too much on my plate.

Just like this time last year, we had sauerkraut and pork for dinner. And just like this time last year, I'm mildly sick. I need that pink stuff, but all of it's at school :( Maybe I'll just sit here and listen to Song of Myself a million times some more.

xx She Dreams Of Storytime And A River Ghost Marz