Last Post of 2011

January: I started off the new year sick as a dog, blehhh. It was a really stressful and scary month, filled with tons of friendship drama and parental battles. Not to mention Scott quit and left us :( We met Willy and he got us through out last first winterguard show. Vampire Academy was taking over my life ;P

February: ICE STORMM! And more general stress and teen angst. I started work at OTB!

March: YAY I'M 18. I got my acceptance letter to UNT and did that taboo thing to my hip! AND OH MY GOD I GOT MY BUNNY!

April: Guard championships and no one was there for me. I got my new car and Tahoe died. Prom rolled around and was another shit fest, bringing me to two wonderfully awful proms. I was way too emotionally unstable in the beginning of the year :P

May: Moar stress and parent problems. Went on Spring Trip to Jesus camp, and Mawmaw died.

June: Senior day and banquets around! Went to A-Kon again and had fun there, then had graduation the next day. Work work work, and found out that my bunny is a girl!

July: Went to Florida with Jamie and had so much fun :) LAST HARRY POTTER MOVIE, AWWWWWW SNAPE! More mommy problems and I got a new Mac, followed by the news that I only got a 3 on my portfolio. Bummer :(

August: Had my endoscopy, finished up work, and got ready for college. I helped Jamie pack up for school and gave her one last hug before she left. I did the craziest colors in my hair and revamped my Kraehe dress. First day of college, yay :D

September: I was sick again :/ Got all excited for Imaginaerum, though! AND I WENT TO GO SEE KAMELOT WITH THE BEST GUY EVER. And I started reading trashy romance ebooks :P

October: Just learning the stress and concentration problems of school work ;P I WENT TO GO SEE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST LIVE WITH JAMIE! Easily the most magical night of my life.

November: And so I start to really ponder life and what awaits beyond college while downloading Sims. I made new dork friends! Dorothy and I decorated for Christmas. Had a shitty Thanksgiving and celebrated an amazing year with my favorite guy :)

December: Colonoscopy, booooo. Then just finishing up my class work and prepping my portfolio, mostly. I made it into Comm Design, yay! And another Christmas in Philly.

I'll say I grew up TREMENDOUSLY this year. Lots of shit helped shape me into what I am right now... it was one hell of a year. Here's to 2012!

xx So Many Stories, So Many Treasures Marz

I Want To Go Home :/

Blehhhh. I'm just so ready to go home.

Today was ok, I did Susan's makeup and that was fun. Then we went out to lunch and came back and had happy nappy time. Then a night of Zorro and Harry Potter. And now a night of me sitting on the computer.

Crystal found this picture of me and Heather in Titans and it was featured in a Facebook group of RHEALLY good cosplays! Although I'm not sure if it's a compliment or not that people were calling us underage jail bait. They don't know us! AND WE DO NOT LOOK ALIKE. I don't see a resemblance. I'm curvy and have bigger eyes.

Bleh. I just want to go home and paint and sew and start getting somewhere on this damn costume! I want to see my friends and eat Qdoba and play with my bunny. Ooooooh my bunny. I miss her so much! And my bed and my pillow and my cave and NO ONE WAKING ME UP. Bah. I'm tired of coughing and this sore throat. Tomorrow or the next day I get to do my 2011 Wrap Up!

xx An Echo On The Wind, You'll Hear My Voice Marz

I AM FOUL BACHELOR FROG

xx The Taverns Are Full And One Crosses My Purdue Marz

Another Christmas

Well now it's the end of another Christmas and Christmas Eve, so there's nothing left to look forward to, really. Well, there is the whole "Last Post Of 2011/Recap Of The Year" that I'm so fond of doing!

Last night was fun, and a typical Christmas Eve filled with yummy food and the same people :P It was so exciting because Susan was telling us allllll about the wedding! And she asked me to do the makeup! Which means I have to learn new tricks and get good in a few months ;P Her ring is SO PRETTY. Looks vintagey and has so many little delicate swirls and curls and I'm just so happy for her :) The bridesmaid dresses are super cute, too! The venue she picked looks like a castle... me gusta. And everyone's still all "OMG MARISSA'S SO GROWN UP AND SKINNY!" It's awkward, what do I say?! But it's nice getting congratulated for comm design and Florence!

I came home early last night with Lisa and Matt and the kids, which was a very god idea, since mom and dad didn't roll in til three this morning, apparently. They all woke me up at eight to open gifts. Once I had my coffee and a nap, I woke up again to the smell of Lisa's epic French Toast and that just made my morning. Plus, dad was so hungover that he ended up napping all morning and didn't make me go to church! SCORE! Mom even lovingly patted my head and said "My little atheist!" Thanks mom.

And then another loooong night of family and dinner and food and of course, presents :) Vickie had me and I had her, too funny. But we got to Skype with Annie and Michael and Gaius and Helo, so that was fun. I wish they could come out for Christmas :/

Loot thus so far: sewing machine, travel bag for it, suitcase, Sims EP, spray painted rabbit, Smashbox makeup and brushes, more makeup brushes, a bedazzled pill box, my assassin boots, a leather tool, a graphic design book, and that awesome raspberry shower gel. And about $230 to spend at A'gaci! The only things I didn't get were the Sephora brushes (But I lucked out and got brushes anyways!) and the Viva La Juicy perfume. Das ok, maybe I'll just go get those on my own soon enough.

And now the kids are asleep, my parents are PFTO'd on the couch, and I'm down in the cave wrapped in the warmest down comforter ever. Looking down at my bunnies resting on my stomach, I realized that... they're not as clean as they used to be. I'm too scared to wash them :( Maybe I should let mom do it. But I need something to cuddle with!

And because it's Christmas, my favorite Christmas song.


xx I Long To Touch You And Hear Your Voice Marz

Christmas Begins.

Well, tonight was fun. We opened presents and I got an awesome sewing machine, a cute rolling bag for it, a suitcase (Which is way too small, nor would I ever take it as a carry on), a red spray painted bunny, giftcards to Agaci, and... my third copy of Beauty and the Beast. Mom bought this one thinking I was getting "all of the movies", but I was getting a 3D Blu-ray version with tons of Blu-ray only features, a DVD, and a digital copy. Five disks and I can only use one... not to mention she was there with me last year when I got the DVD for Pollyanna. Hell, she even watched it with me! Oh well.

And naturally, mom and dad have been snarky with each other. It's so damn frustrating when they do that! Everything is an argument and I'm tired of trying to calm things down. Like they were fighting over which big present I was supposed to open first, fighting over how to cook pizza, fighting over the fact that mom wanted to know about the reward points on her credit card even though she didn't know how to write a website down, and more. I just want to go away from here and have a nice night without any of that. I want a night of cuddles and kisses and stupid jokes and kitties.

Speaking of, things have just been so quiet here. My phone battery lasted almost the whole day, and I barely talked to anyone. Every time I got a buzz, it was just my bakery. I really do miss him :(

xx Fly To The Dream Marz

The 80s Weren't Good To You

Oh GOD. I don't know what's worse: the volume or the side part. Marco, why you so crasay.


And this? But... those faces... What could be better!

xx A Song Of Me Is All You Need

Comm Design!

Well as of last night, I am officially a Comm Design student :) I guess I'm excited that the wait is over, but I'm not overly excited about making it in. I dunno, I feel like it was nothing, really... then again, I feel bad because a lot of people were freaking out about it, like seriously freaking out, and I was just kind of pokerface. Oh well, I'm in, AND I'm writing this from my new (Well, gently used) laptop :)

So far for Christmas, I've gotten an Amazon gift card, a big fluffy blanket, a new comforter and sheet set, cash, a sewing machine, and Pirates and Nobles. I'm curious to see what else is under the tree... I mean, on the floor under the dining room chairs :/ Booooo lack of Christmas spirit.

BUT WHOAH HOT DAMN. Big Lots is like, the coolest ghetto store ever. I got a ten dollar rug for TWO BUCKS. They had all sorts of cool frames and mirrors and little things. I did some good shopping today, though! That rug, more Keurig coffee, a movie for dad, fabric scissors for me and Jamie, and Qdoba. Mmmmm shopping. Tomorrow I have to pack, take Lita to get her nails clipped, and take down her bunny home to take to Jamie's.

So in the car, I've been listening to my Nightwish shuffle to stop myself from listening to Imaginaerum too much. And I've come to realize... every song on that album is amazing. I'm still hooked on Last Ride Of The Day. It's just *SUCH* a classic Nightwish song! But I still love all the ballads and acoustic songs. And I also realized how golden Marco's voice is. Mmmm. Sing me songs, Marco!




That last one needs less movie and more Marco. He needs to just let me touch his hair while he plays me The Islander. It's kind of creepy how Tuomas follows him around in While Your Lips Are Still Red...You know, I had a dream last night that Nightwish was in that recording studio/cabin retreat that they used in DPP. I was in a room with Tuomas and he had his back to me, but he was looking out a window. Typical poet.

xx The Beauty Of This Ride Ahead, Such An Incredible High Marz

Oh Jamie.

It's funny how ever since we were younger, we've always loved to lay on the couch and eat snow cones and day dream about our weddings. Well now we lay in bed with ice cream and crafts and still do the same thing. Jamie's gonna be my Best Woman, and I'm gonna be her Maid of Horror. We'll have a roast instead of a toast.

And since it was a night of wedding dress shows, we only felt it neccessary to rudely comment and make jokes about the dresses/girls. Seriously. We're like bridal Beavis and Butthead. I'm so glad I have a best friend who loves the same guilty things I do!

It's funny, I feel like I'm really bad at making plans, in the sense that I make loose plans/schedules of the next few days (Because I'm a weirdo and I like planning things out), but I don't allow time for random things that pop up, like this giant project me and Jamie have to do this weeekend. I'm just glad I'm gonna get Lita taken care of! I feel guilty about her sometimes :P I just love my baby bunny.

Tomorrow/today's list: Get the bunny pen, clean out my car, and string those stupid cards.

xx The Night Above A Graveyard Green Marz

I'm Obviously A Girl

Goddammit Jamie! Quit sending me links to Etsy and Polyvore!






xx Siren From The Deep Marz

Busy Busy Busy

Wow, this had been a crazy busy week. Between finishing up the portfolio, submitting, and then finding sleep between everything, the days have all sort of run together into this mess of a blur.

Tomorrow I'm gonna pack up my shit and go home. Dear room, I'll see you next year! Computer, I'll also see you next year! I have to pack up all my art and most of my clothes and paints and fish tomorrow and then take my psych final before I go home. I dunno, with Dorothy gone, there hasn't been much to do but play Sims, hang out with my art friends, or hang out with Kyle and Dylan. And sleep and eat. Oh man, I can't wait for real food! Real, tasty, salty, garlicy, wholesome food!

AND MY BUNNY! Oh Lita, I miss you! And I'm gonna make you a nice home this weekend :) I hope everything works out, but I do need to go buy some grass mats and maybe that chewable tunnel. Room rearranging, ahoy! Oh bunny bunny, I love yewwww. Lita. Why you so cute. Why you gotta twist my heart with your cuteness. Only one other living being can do that.

Time to try and get a little bit of sleep... but after I eat my last few candy corns.

xx It Was Us, Long Ago Marz

Social Thursday?

Yesterday was pretty social, if you ask me! Drawing was sad, but everyone seemed to like my motif. After that, I came home and napped and then took the last test in Art Appreciation, which I got a B on, giving me two A's and three B's in the class, which I'm assuming is a B average :P Thenw e spent the rest of the day SHOPPING. I bought one sweater and two earrings, which is good for me!

BUT MY BOOTS ARE OUT OF STOCK. Well the size 7 is out, so I called them back to see if I could get a 7.5 for the same sale price I would have originally paid for the boots, instead of the regular price they are today. So I have some boots on the way hopefully :P And dang, Amazon reminded me that I STILL haven't bought The Saga Of Larten Crepsley! I don't know why, he was one of my *favorite* book characters ever and made Cirque Du Freak amazing for me. I hope his series is good too, but we'll see if I get any B&N gift cards for Christmas!

Anyways, back to yesterday. We bummed around in the room until Kyle and Dylan came to pick me up to go to the Insomnia event with Spencer and Jared. It was kind of fun getting out of the room and doing something different, but we got bored soon enough and went back to Kyle's room to play Left 4 Dead 2. I was skeptical about the game at first because it was a shooter game, but once they told me I could use an ax, baseball bat, and katana, I was sold. Then my asshat friends talked me into doing something absolutely disgusting.

Today was interesting. I had a great dream and woke up at 10:44, then showered and did my makeup and sat around watching wedding shows with Dorothy for a few hours. I don't think she'll like my wedding... ha ha, it was fun. Then I went to go see Holden about my portfolio and she's making it really difficult for me to want to do Com Design. I'm at this great divide again and mildly stressed because now I have to make *another* design piece, something nonobjective and in color. But now she told me to do what makes me happy, and that's drawing and painting. So now I don't know.

xx Forevermore A Change From G To E Minor Marz

So... Close...

Well, today was an interesting day. I slept horribly and had to go alllll the way to the art building just to drop off a binder and then walk home. I worked on my motif for a bit, then took a nap until Dorothy came home. Then we worked until the design lecture, went to that (It was a huge waste of time), and came back to work on the motif some more. It looks so bad, blurghhh. Psych was nice and short too, and I'm gonna finish putting together my drawing portfolio until Dorothy gets back with the picture I need to finish my still life with. I'm not stressed, yay! I just realllllly want my new boots already, and to see what's in the Sephora box Dorothy put under my tree :)

So it's that time of the year again when I buy a new Nightwish calendar, but the one for next year is retarded. It's like, 95% of the page is a giant picture, and then the dates are just a number line on the bottom of the page. Well that doesn't help me, how do I write shit there?! So I might not buy one. I've been buying calendars since 2005... That's so weird to think. And I still have them all!

Mmmmm, time to go work. But the spoken poem in Song of Myself is so pretty and distracting...

xx A Sight To Silence The Heavens Marz

Banging My Head On The Wall

Well. Today was a waste. I turned an hour nap into a three hour nap and didn't get enough of my still life done, and what I do have done just looks like shit. The foreground rocks, but the boar and ivy looks awwwwwuful. So I put that on hold and decided to start the background for my coffin motif. Maybe tomorrow I'll work on this and it won't be so bad! Then I have to finish my still life after Dorothy takes a picture of the boar for me.

I watched an episode of Where On Earth Is Carmen Sandiego and felt a nostalgic rush. I miss playing the game on my computer! I want to find a Mac version so bad, ha ha. Mmmmm old school games. What else... Can't think of much. I just have so much to do tomorrow, plus nicely label and organize my drawing portfolio.

I can't wait for the weekend.

xx The Mermaids You Turned Loose Brought Back Your Tears Marz

I LOVE YOU, NIGHTWISH

Seriously. It's unhealthy now. I refuse to miss their concert when they come to town, like they did four years ago on a Tuesday night when I had rehearsal. MY FIRST NIGHTWISH SHOW BETTER BE EPIC.

I bought new boots today :D

Very excited for these, since I want something a little cuter, but still ass-kicking worthy. I'm very ok with the extra boost, too ;P Mmmmm, I love shoes. I'm even wearing my red Marceline boots right now, and I wore them to class earlier!

Ughhhh, time to do motifs. I got a lot done today, but it's taking a looong time. Plus there's a mandatory wing meeting tonight, which I'm very excited to go to. Hopefully that Katie girl stops making phone calls late at night in the hallway, talking to her mom and boyfriend and being all sick and sappy and rude by taking up the whole hallway. COME ON JESS AND MARY, YOU GUYS CAN FIX THIS!

I don't know what to have for dinner. Maybe some more Nightwish.

xx Forget Every Rule, There's No Fear In A Dream Marz

Holy Shit, DESIGN.

So it's ten til three and I'm still up. I was up scanning and resizing and writing biographies and resumes and providing a shoulder to cry on. PLUS THAT BITCH WAS OUT IN THE HALLWAY ON THE PHONE WITH HER BOYFRIEND AGAIN. AT TWO THIRTY AM. SERIOUSLY?!

Bahhh. Design work is done! I'm just awake... must have been all that napping and soda. Man this was a rollercoaster of a weekend! Shitty (literally), ok, shitty, ok, much better, REALLY GOOD, very nice, crappy, crappy, shitty, suckfest. Bah :P

So I'm driving home from school and I'm listening to the first song of Imaginaerum, the Finnish one. And it hits me... Why the hell would Tuomas be singing, when Marco is the male vocalist. That voice could belong to either of them, but I'm betting it's Marco's. DAMN I'm GOOD. I just wonder what the lyrics are, cause it's such a pretty song :)

Tuomas is getting so poetic with his word structure. "At the end of the river the sun down beams" and "Sleep the journey from your eyes" is... so old fashioned :P I love him nonetheless! Not to mention the obnoxious river reference in most of the songs! Anette says something, I think it's "The grass under my bare feet" and it reminds me of Tarja singing that in "The Elvenpath". Creeeeepy. Tuomas, Y U RECYCLE LYRICS?!

I got nothing else, except for a sore body, a sore back, and sore eyes. Time to try and get some sleep... it's hard to downgrade beds like this :(

xx Every Little Memory Resting Calm In Me Marz

Someday

Jamie and I will be on Maury.
I'll see my first Nightwish concert.
I'll finish school.
I'll paint murals on walls.
I'll master Sunday sauce.
I'll have a black Christmas tree.
I'll say yes to the dress.
I'll see the Northern Lights.
My hands *might* get bigger.
I'll know how to sew.
I'll master all things crafty.
All my fatassery will catch up to me.
I'll do something different to my hair.
I'll inherit swords, a glass pig, and a badass mixer.
Everyone in the art world will know my name.
I won't be a crazy old hag.
I'll see all my favorite castles and cathedrals.
I'll wake up in a cuddle.
I'll be a queen.

Colonoscopy/IMAGINAERUM

Today was oddly interesting. Let me start with yesterday though... KYLE BROUGHT ME IMAGINAERUM. My dreams have come true. After four years of waiting for this album, IT'S REAL AND IT'S MINE. I've listened to it all day, at least seven times through.

I adore the first song, sung in Finnish. I can't tell who's singing, because it sounds like Tuomas, but I know he said he'd never sing again after Astral Romance ;P But this is sooo like him. Anyways, love it cause it sounds like a music box. Then Storytime after, which rocks. I don't remember the order exactly nor all the song names, but I'll skip around. Turn Loose The Mermaids is GORGEOUS. I love Anette's ballads :) And the jazz song was actually really good! Slow Love Slow is... slow and romantic. Bass, piano, and voice. There's a little Marco duet action in there ;) Jazzy, but gets metal at the end. I Want My Tears Back is pretty heavy, and there's some good sounds from Emppu there! Story of Me is weird because the last half of the long song is dialogue, and kind of depressing :P And I love the last song, Imaginaerum, because it's an orchestral medly of the album. I feel like it should have been the first song, like an overture.

Other songs... Arabesque is ok, very Middle Eastern influenced. Scareground is just weird as hell, between the demented kids and the Harold-esque circus leader. There's one more song I'm forgetting the name of, but I like it's heaviness. Oh yeah, and of course I love The Owl, The Crow, And The Dove :)

It's just such an experimental album. So many new sounds and styles for them, but also sounds that allude back to the earlier albums. It's not very consistent sounding between songs, cause each one is so different and complex. Tuomas is truly a genius composer.

Anyways, enough of the music rant. I've been chugging that salty acid shit liquid and peeing out of my butt. Like seriously, it's gross. My stomach is making the funniest sounds, too... but I have to wake up in five hours to do this all over again before we go to the hospital at nine thirty. Ughhh, I'm hungry :( So much Nightwish in my mind! Definitely gonna be my signatures for the next few posts...

xx What Color Is Our Love Marz

Yay :)

Today was a very very very acceptable Monday. I love skipping class and napping all afternoon and having awesome dinner with the most awesome person in the world. I wish the day never had to end...

And now I'm back in my dorm, sitting on the floor, eating a can of Very Cherry fruit cocktail. Forever alone. Time for bed.

xx And Please Believe Me When I Say I Love You Marz

A Much Better Friday

Today was significantly better than yesterday. Thanks to the meds, I got a nice full night of sleep and only woke up once to pee, which is weird because I hardly ever make up, much less to pee. Then I spent my day on the couch watching Wedding Friday until that one bitch's episode came on and I decided it was time to stop laying on the couch being smelly. I went upstairs and took an *awesome* bath. Like, I can't remember the last time I had one that good. My new shampoo smells so good with the velvet tuberose. To top it all off, instrumental version of The Islander with that. Damn I miss baths so much when I'm at school.

It's sad that a bath was the highlight of my day :P I played Sims the rest of the afternoon and started on my third kingdom. Having to decorate a castle every time is getting old... So are doing the same quests over and over again. But I have to so I can beat the game :P I did two quests before dinner and... I don't know if I'll play anymore tonight :P It's like, I KNOW I need to do motifs, but I just don't have the focus or the desire to do them. I want to draw cool stuff! At least I got all my artist research out of the way, did my Psych check-in, and came up with more coffee cup ideas. And I took some pictures of containers to draw :P Maybe I'm going at it from the wrong angle... maybe I'm trying too hard?

Goddammit, I finished Demon in the Dark. I can't tell if I liked it or not... it started off kind of weak, but definitely built up once Carrow started putting the moves on animalistic Malkom and things got hot in his mine. I was so heartbroken when he coldly rejected her after she "betrayed" him, but I'm so glad he realized she did it for Ruby and learned to trust her again! And the book ended with sex, how fitting. I love when the last few lines are something soooooo romantic. I'd probably give it a five :) Now I'm sad because I need a new book to read... MOAR ROMANCE.

xx Sun And Stars Against A Blue Blue Sky Marz

I Really Don't Like Thanksgiving

And I'll tell you why.

First off, I don't care for the food. There's always so much, too, and it's usually super heavy. Second off, we usually have a lot of people over, which means a lot of clean up and lots of old people who I have nothing to talk about with. Luckily that wasn't the problem this year, as it was just me and the Sunshine Gang. However, the dinner was still as awkward as ever because... we don't talk at dinner anymore.

Now this time, I was feeling miserable and sluggish. And yet dad was bothering me all day to get up and do stuff and this and that... but when he's not feeling well, he won't pick up a finger. Which made me grouchier, because this morning I couldn't talk at all. Luckily my voice came back, but so did the coughing and gunk and sore throat.

Well when I finally did talk at dinner, he wasn't even paying attention to me because football was more interesting. He was complaining that I wasn't being myself at dinner...well no shit. It's awkward, I have nothing to say, I have a pulsing sinus headache, and I wish it could be better. Being home just makes me sad now. Seriously, I think I've cried every night that I've been home in the past few weeks as I'm laying in bed. I just hate it here. This house feels so foreign to me now. And then I think of everyone else who really enjoys this holiday and that makes me feel even more out of place.

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I don't feel right being home. Dad always wants to play a game or something... well we don't play the same games. Mom always asks if I'm going out with friends. Why would I go out? I came home to be home, but I might as well go out. Too bad I'm feeling like death. I feel bad because I just can't get past this negative mood that I have towards this house because of all the fighting and words. What's the point in talking? They still can't even remember my major. It doesn't matter. Am I being selfish? Maybe. I just want to come home to something comfortable.

xx Don't Give Me Love Marz

Oh dA, You So Fuhnny!

Those faces... Oh God. Those faces.

SECOND SINGLE RELEASED!

Well, I love the balladness of it in the beginning :) Marco and Anette sound so gorgeous together! You know, this song had a lot of negative comments on Youtube... I like it! Someone said that Troy also sings in this? Who knew the pipe player could sing :P The lyrics are interesting, though... Don't give me love, I've had my share?! Interesting! Ha ha I read that Tuomas pointed out that it's "kind of funny that the most poppy song on the album is composed by the most metalhead dude in the band". YOU GO MARCO! Although I don't agree with how people say this sound like some poppy boy band song. What. I don't consider this poppy at all! Poppy would be more like... Storytime. To me at least, when I think poppy, I think the most upbeat song compared to the other ones!

ONE MORE WEEK TIL THE NEW ALBUM, YAY! JK, it's not released in the US until January 10. no fair, Finland and Sweden get it next week! But... on the Nightwish shop, it appears that so long as you preorder now, it'll still be released in a week. What's 19 Euros in US dollars?! Should I buy it now?! UUNNNGGHHHHH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

xx I Kissed Her Hand Marz

Screw My Throat!

Well, not literally. But it's still acting like a crack whore. I can't even focus because it's killing me so much. Bahhhh.

So earlier I spent like, two hours trying to put together my Pollyanna list. But the truth is, I really don't want anything for Christmas except for a sewing machine from mom and dad. And then all I want to do is go shopping for the fabric I need from the wholesaler :P Off white canvas and that pretty red and that faux leather! It will be mine. I think I put on my list that Philosophy soap, a graphic design book, a leather tool, brown knee boots for the costume, and a makeup brush set. I'd never wear brown boots, but for this, I'll make an exception. Let's hope my Secret Santa is good for me and gets me all the things on my list! I forgot to put the Pirates and Nobles EP on there, oops. Maybe I'll get that after Christmas.

I looked at Copic markers, but I just couldn't commit. I'd love to do marker work, but... I'm afraid I might not use the markers as much as I think I would. Sadface. Plus a set of 72 is like, three hundred something dollars :P Oh well, maybe I'll just collect them one at a time... It's an idea.

Seriously, this coffee cup thing is killer. I'm only on number 25 and I can't come up with anything good for things to do with a coffee cup! I think hamster bath and blunt object to commit murder with are my favorites. This project is horse shit! I DIDN'T WANT SALMON, I SAID IT FOUR TIMES!



xx Am I Really In Love Right Next To You Marz

THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE

Well I could start by telling about my fantastic weekend full of loving and fooding and GWARing and being sore, but I won't, because no words would do that justice.

Today was good. We were assigned our *FINAL* project in design class, which is a three paneled collage telling a story. Well I decided on doing an autobiography, where the first panel shows my childhood, the second shows me now, and the third shows what I'd like to be someday. I found a killer picture of a crown that's totally going in the last panel ;D I got a lot of images from my InStyle luckily, but I want to go find some fabric and pretty paper and maybe some Google images. I hate collaging, but I love storytelling.

Then I came home and napped from 10:30 til 1. I had the CRAZIEST, LONGEST dream that I've had in a long time... and I've noticed a recurring element. Sometimes I dream that college is set up like a mall, with the art wing at the far end. And I run and run and run up and down stairs to get to the art wing, but it's always the business one instead and then I get lost. Weird. I need to see what that means in my dream books!

The rest of the day...was amazing. The sky was dark, so we kept the lights off and only had a lamp on and watched The Princess Diaries while eating pudding and cookie dough. I love chocolate pudding. I even found a guy tonight that gave me like, twelve things of pudding! Win. Dorothy and I were gonna skip class, but Gina texted saying we had a pop quiz, so we boked it to class, took a tardy, and had class.

The rest of the night was kind of slow. We ate and hung out with Kyle and Laura a little bit, but then came back to art. I spent most of the night in here alone working on my Elm Fork and cleaning stuff up. Once that was done, I went to go help Gina use chalk pastel and came back to my room to eat some ramen and watch a movie. Netflix recommended Highlander, so I gave it a go. And while it was a rough beginning for me, I grew to enjoy it. What's not to enjoy about shirtless men being all manly and tough with swords?! And it was romantic... sad, but romantic. AND UBER CHEESEY. I guess I'll watch the second one later this week :P It's funny, Google Books always has a lot of romance novels about highlanders... maybe I should give one a go! Ha ha, but the one I'm on now is... odd.

So tomorrow I have to haul home laundry, my computer, the fish, my clothes bag, and my tote bag full of homeworks to do. Bleeeeehhhhh. But I get dinner with Jamie, yay! I miss her. BUT HOT DAMN, I HAVE A SORE THROAT. AND MY VOICE IS SLOWING TURNING INTO THAT OF A CRACK WHORE. Looks like I don't get to sing along on the drive home... sad. I really don't want to me sick, because the stomach sick is more than enough sick that I want to deal with. Plus I was doing so good with fending off my fall sickness :P Oh well, good thing I'm home, at least.

I guess I should hop into bed and read a little bit before sleeping. You win again, midnight.

xx So I Sat Down Beside Them With Flowers All Around Marz

TUH TUHT TUH TUESDAY

Another lovely Tuesday has come and gone. Drawing was alright, I got kind of stuck on the knot, but made it work. Then me and Dorothy went to Walmart and got Christmas going! I made a gaudy glitzy glittery garland with random shit in it, while Dorothy's was traditional. I love decorating for Christmas :) She wouldn't let me get a black tree... Ryne said I should make a metal garland. Tempting.

Aaaaaand I spent the rest of the day playing Sims and working on projects. I wrote my DMA essay and drew Lita, yay! Tomorrow I turn in the design project and we shall critique. Blehhhh. Everyone LOVES my knight and lady, but I feel that the other two are weak sauce. Oh well, we'll see!

So while I'm working, I get a knock on the door, to which I respond with my customary "ENTAR!" which is from some movie, but I can't remember which one :P It was Kyle and Dylan picking me up to go watch Tosh! That was so nice of them. Then Kyle helped me start a game of Skyrim and after having fun running/failing at running from the dragon in the beginning, I enjoyed killing and looting people. It's just a hard game to look at because there's SO MANY textures and materials around you. And the buttons aren't on the screen like in Assassin's Creed, so I actually have to remember where they are :P I liked it a lot and could have possibly played for a few more hours, but I left with Dylan to come back to our floor to get some work done :P

And then it was a night of Dorothy and her entourage in here to watch her dye her hair brown. It's a fairly light brown, not very dark, but super dark by her standards :P Tomorrow I'm gonna call to go get my hair done on Thursday. I'm thinking super dark brown with white chunks. I feel like it'll look nice (AND EVEN), but I'll ask the person doing my hair. They'll probably talk me into doing something else, ha ha. I don't care, I just want even colors. I love getting my hair done... it makes me feel so pretty. Nothing is more satisfying than three girls coloring your hair at once.

Oh my God, look what Stumble found for me. That's way too funny!


xx Will You Save Me Tonight, Rescue Me From My Mind Marz

This Is Anette's Man?!

I don't know why it took me so long to figure out what he looked like. I mean, she always talks about him being on tour with Pain and playing with Nemo and whatnot, but I never matched a face to the name... until now. Well done Anette, your son will be beautiful one day. I've only heard one song from his band, but maybe I should give them a go. I don't get why celebrities don't get married... let's just reproduce, but stay single people. Even though we live together and have kids and everything. Weird.

Well, it's been a semi-productive night tonight. I started my Elm Fork motif, started my sketchbook artist entries, and finished my design shit. Pretty good, I'd say! I found this chick named Marina V on Pandora and she's got an INCREDIBLE voice. Her music is very very pretty and well worth the iTunes download. YES, I BOUGHT AN ALBUM AND DIDN'T ILLEGALLY DOWNLOAD IT. Oh I want to listen to her all night! She's gorgeous too, but unknown as a singer! Shame, cause she could go far. I wish I could post my favorite song from her, but it's not on Youtube... weird.


Oh well, I might do some quests tonight before bed. I'm just in such a good mood. I feel so loved and satisfied with my place in life right now :)

xx Baby I Am Scared To See The Truth Marz

HAPPY MONDAY BLARGH.

Well I just listened to an hour long video stream of Marco answering fan questions. Why didn't I know about this sooner?! I would have asked him to marry me... How does such a golden voice come from such a beastly guy?! Me gusta.

Weeeeeellllll. I have to finish my design work by Wednesday morning, then a week from tomorrow I have my Elm Fork shit due and my fabric study, so here's hoping I finish both on time :P I also have motifs to do, two artist researches, and that paper bag drawing thing to do. Poooop. Plus two tests on Wednesday. I'll probably bring my Elm Fork stuff home with me this weekend to hopefully get something done, especially if I have all day Saturday :P

What else what else... Today was one of the first days I didn't wear a jacket to class. It's just THAT WARM IN MID NOVEMBER. What the hell, Texas. IS THAT MARCO FARTING ON ANETTE?! I feel like I've been in that situation before... but that face.

xx We're Traveling To Glaston, Over England's Green Lanes Marz

You Know What's Sad?

It's Friday night, and I'm sitting at home watching my favorite wedding shows with a plate of avacados covered in salt and lime. Do you know how cool it must be to have gotten married today on 11/11/11? Good luck forgetting that!

It's safe to say my mind is in full blown Medieval Mode. Blackmore's Night all the time, Sims, and even my design project started off medieval. Not to mention I saw a commercial for Medieval Times and I realized how bad I want to go there for my birthday! That place is so cool!

Buuuuuuut, that's just a dream far far away. Until then, I live in my mundane world where I steal away to my weekend wonderland when I can :P To the land of fantastic food and furry creatures and gamesgamesgames.

I'm looking forward to babysitting tomorrow... I want to go shopping! I *need* to go get green primer and a moisturizer so my face stops looking ugly... that's probably gonna be about sixty, so it all works out perfectly! Although dad said he wanted to take me shopping tomorrow... nah, I wouldn't subject him to Sephora. Jesus, I haven't even been there in a long time! I might buy online so I can get that free fragrance kit to find a new smell. I JUST WANT TO SMELL PRETTY.

Being a girl is tough. I realized tonight that all I want for Christmas is a sewing machine and a big box of Copic Sketch markers. And more makeup, of course. I think the hardest part is coming up with Pollyanna gift ideas, because those should be smaller to build up more of a surprise ;P Uh oh, I smell some games on that list... I think I should update my Amazon wishlist because I haven't touched it in moooonths :P Maybe I'll find idears thar!

OH THIS BITCH IS GETTING A PRINCESS WEDDING IN DISNEYLAND. Lucky bitch. I want to work for David Tutera someday so he can design my wedding. OH HE GAVE HER A SLEW OF DISNEY PRINCESSES TO TEACH HER HOW TO NOT BE GHETTO.

What else, what else. Here's to a night of trying to do art with no computer for help!

xx Once She Left All That She Knew In The Hopes Of A Golden Ring Marz

Dreams?!

First dream, I got a message from Kryzzzzz telling me to come visit him in Italy. He even changed his name to be more Italian. I got there and we went on all sorts of adventures, and they ended when he tried to kiss me while I was getting out of the car and ended up smacking his face on the car instead.

Second dream, I went to Victory to eat breakfast with my friends. When I got there, they'd already eaten and were sitting outside on the grass and I asked Dorothy to drive me to the building to get food. I left my tote bag with my laptop in it outside. Well Dorothy thought we were leaving, so we ended up going back to Kerr but I freaked and told her if we were doing that, I needed to get my tote bag because it was raining! But my bag was missing and I searched high and low for it, but didn't find it and was panicking. Then I found the contents of it under Dorothy's bed and then found the bag, but with no laptop. Sad.

Third dream, it was the night of some grand opening of a restaurant. I want to Starbucks and put down two tall mocha frapps, then went to the restaurant. Mom got mad because I forgot to bring a tiny ruler for her, so I told her I'd go find one. I asked dad where my car was, and ran to find it. Then I woke up.

I haven't dreamed that much in a very long time!

STORYTIME IS RELEASED!

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYYYYYY! Oh my God, this is amazing. The sound is so pure and classic, just how I like it. Heavy, but brought up by Anette. These songs were written for her voice, so she's gonna sound soooo good! Oh I love this, it's so dramatic and twisting and dark but dreamy and magical. And the video itself is terrifyingly fabulous! I love their personas and can't wait to see how the movie plays out :) AWWWW MARCO IN A LITTLE SUIT, HOW CUTE.

JUST DAMN. I haven't been this excited in a long time :) Yay for singles coming out but... I can't wait for the album now! YEAH IMAGINAERUM!

xx I Am The Voice Of Never Neverland Marz

An Interesting Day

Well today was mildly interesting. It was day two of waking up not balls tired and actually moving in the morning! Drawing was boring, but I got a shitty motif done and drew a skull :P Then Gina and I spent the noon hour at Target and Michael's and Pei Wei before returning back to Kerrrrrrr. Then Dorothy and I just sort of sat in the room all day. I was playing Sims and she was working on her fabric study, which does look really damn good. I don't start mine until Thursday, but I'm hoping to meet or exceed hers. She said she envies that I work so fast, but I can't tell if she's telling the truth or not because I know how competitive she is. See, I'm not. I'm making art to make me happy. Sure I care that it looks nice, but I'm not striving to make everything perfect and be number one in the class.

Somewhere in the mid afternoon, I drew a picture of Lita in my sketchbook and then practiced what I wanted to do for the mixed media application. I drew her on bristol board, then went over the drawing with light washes of ink. Well they started building up and before I knew it, I pulled out the white paint and had a full blown painting going :P It looks like my eyes on the wall, kind of helter skelter, but somehow works. I'm happy :P Then I picked up the painting I started a few weeks ago of the grey skinned girl and refined the skin and painted hair and eyes. I'm bad at painting now... I forgot how to paint hair my way :P

Then Dylan and Kyle stopped by and after hanging out for a bit, they invited me to Kyle's room to watch Tosh.0. NO ONE EVER INVITES ME ANYWHERE. We had to go to the B tower, and I must say I'm really glad I'm a girl. I've only been in two guy rooms, but I'm learning that they all smell bad and are scarcely decorated. Maybe that's just my inner woman and the fact that I like embellishing and accessorizing, but seriously guys, what's so hard? And what IS that awful smell?!

Came back to my room after and have just been spending the evening to myself. I really like the new shampoo I got, it smells nice :) I braided my hair super tight to see if I can get some sort of cool shape tomorrow. Ugh, design. I don't like the project and I never get any work done because everyone talks in that class. Kim talks too much to me and it's no wonder I don't get anything done. Plus I can never put my phone down... college fail. I dunno, we'll see how that project goes. I might do my graphite/wash technique on that!

Nothing on my mind tonight, just enjoying the time to myself after a very social day.

xx Just Follow Me Marz

JUST DAYUM.

Well I finished A Rose In Winter last night. It ended with the big fight scene and Christopher dashed in and saved his lady, who then fought bravely by his side. The last chapter was Christopher and Erienne cuddling in bed and he tells her "I spent too much time fighting for you just to have to stay behind me. I want you always by my side, next to my heart." AWWWWW SUCH SWEET LAST LINES. I'd say that turned out to be a good book. Slow in the beginning, but picked up very well and had a lot of fighting and mystery and drama and juuuuust enough sexiness to fit. Now I need a new book :P

BUT HOLY SANTA CLAUS SHIT. MEDIEVAL SIMS IS AMAMAMAMAMAMAMAMAAAAAZING. I palyed a whole 10.5 hours today, and probably a good six or seven last night. This game rocks! I'm totally trolling it, though. I named the Bard character Tuomas because when you start out, your lowest rank is Troubadour... JUST LIKE THE SONG HE SINGS CALLED ONCE UPON A TROUBADOUR. And now he's a Minstrel, which means... PLAY FOR ME MINSTREL PLAY, AND TAAAAAAAAAAAKE AWAY OUR SORROWS like Blackmore's Night sings. I'm such a music/game troll. I always make the same kinds of Sims: pale skin, dark hair, dark eyes, bony face. My Knight is the only blonde. No gingers in my kingdom, unless you want to count Ara Grey, but she's got firetruck red hair and she's a Witch so it doesn't really count. I just made a lady Physician and I have an eccentric Priestess modeled after Anette and a piratey Merchant that bears a very close resemblance to Jukka.

I love this game so much. the quests were easy as a Monarch, but the Wizard and Merchant ones are tough. I just need to research the places a bit more before playing again. I REALLY WANT TO GET THE PIRATES AND NOBLES EP NOW. Speaking of love... these things are the most incredible things I've put in my mouth in a realllllly long time.



YEAH THEY'RE BUNNY SHAPED CHOCOLATE CHIP GRAHAMS. And they don't have a shitty cardboard taste either. These things taste so damn good for being whole wheat and organic and full of other goods. I CANNOT stop eating them... they're just so good! AND THE BOX IS COVERED IN BUNNIES. ADORABLE.

My back's hurting from sitting in this chair. Time to buy a new book and climb into bed.

xx Hear Minstrel, Can You Hear Marz

DA FUH?!

SAXTON AND CHRISTOPHER ARE THE SAME MAN. How did I not see this! How did I not realize that when Lord Saxton would "go away for days at a time on business", Christopher was always around to mess with Erienne?! And now they're happily in love... and I thought the book would end well, but this plot twist happened a hundred pages before the end and shit just got real. Erienne got kidnapped, we find out her father isn't really her father, and Christopher is about to raise hell to win his wife back. I'm probably gonna climb up into bed here soon and finish off the book.

Bah. I didn't take a nap today, so I'm way tired. I want to go shoe shopping for some cute slouchy sexy boots. I just want to go shopping in general.

xx Endlessly, I'll Love You Endlessly Marz

Isolated?

Since my last post, I've been diligently reading and WOO HOO, ERIENNE AND SAXTON HAVE HAD MULTIPLE NIGHTS OF HOT WILD MONKEY SEX. Good!

But occasionally I look up to check the status of my game download (875 MB out if 4.6 GB in two hours, how slow! :/) and the clock is right above it. And then I realize the hour and that Dorothy's out with friends, which is great and all because she's social. But then I've come to think, do I really have "friends" here that I want to hang out with? I have friends that I walk to class with and sit next to, but we don't hang out much outside of class. True, probably if I went to the studio more often, I'd be apart of the conversations of my fellow community mates.

But then I think, do I need them? Like, do I really need company? Then I think of my old friends from school, my Geishas, who I used to go on all sorts of crazy adventures with. Victor and I recollected the night we went to meet Kat Von D and I remembered how fun that was. But I can't find anyone who I even want to be friends with. It's like, I'm obligated to be company for some of my so called "friends" here. But there's no one who I seek company in. Like I wouldn't leave my empty dorm room right now to find someone, but maybe that's just because I'm not a social person.

It's not that I don't need friends, but people here just get in my way. What's the point of making these bonds when in another four years, we're all just gonna graduate and go on our paths with life? I guess forming friendships is like a constant cycle, but I don't feel like I need people around me. Does this make me a hermit? No friends... I'll end up just like mom. I guess to get anywhere in life you have to know people and make those bonds, especially in the art world where relationships might get you a job or make you famous.

I'm not totally opposed to friends I guess, but they get all clingy and want you to do this or come with them for that and I don't know. I can't tell if I like people or not. I envy Dorothy sometimes for having a life, but then I realize that this is the life I chose for myself. Like tonight, we went down to get ice cream with two guys, Tam and Sloan, but the group soon turned into another six or eight people because Dorothy saw someone she knew. I recognize faces, but not names. Do these people even know my name? I think I met them all at least once.

It's funny how I used to be even more antisocial, but at least I had a small circle of friends to lean back on. Senior year I started making lots more friends, and then it didn't matter because we were all up and leaving. I started off college thinking I'd made new friends, but lately, none of them just stand out to me. I suppose according to the psych lesson we had tonight, they do appeal to me because of some similar qualities we share, but they just don't really move me.

I think I have two moods: sweetly in love and overflowing with warm feelings, or just plain apathetic and isolating. I fear the lack of an in between is really gonna mess with me. I don't know where I'm going with this. Some days I want to pack up and drive to Dallas, other days I want to lay in bed for hours, and I've lost that spark to make art that expresses what I feel. I've really just lost a spark for art altogether, which isn't good because that's all I can identify with. I'm Marissa, the artist, and I've never seen myself as anything other than that and now I can't even see myself as it. I got a lot of good feedback on my tarot cards and that kind of gives me a bit of hope, but I'm just not satisfied with my work. I'm almost to that point where I just want to get something done with quickly, so that I stop worrying about it.

How much longer is this going to last?

xx Sometimes I Wonder Where The Wind Has Gone Marz

WTF, Erienne.

Ok, so the more I read A Rose In Winter, the more it makes me mad. Erienne is married to Saxton and despite his leather mask and limp foot and gloved hands and tall, beastly stature, I was expecting her to learn to love his scars and defuncts (New favorite word). And yet she keeps running away from him every time he touches her and WON'T GIVE HIM THE CONSUMMATING WEDDING SEX HE DESIRES. And he's so kind to her, showering her with dresses and jewels and compliments on her radiant beauty and affectionate names, and what does she do? Fear him. LOVE HIM, PLEASE. HE'S YOUR HUSBAND.

And don't get me started on Christopher. He's such an ass, always showing up whenever something happens and imposing himself on her, talking about how he'll make her his wife someday. HE'S SAXTON'S COUSIN DAMMIT. She keeps pushing him away and turning him down, but whenever she thinks about passion, guess whose face pops up in her mind. Good ol Christopher Seton. Like I'm gonna be really really mad if she leaves Saxton or something and ends up with Christopher. I swear to God, if she has sex with Christopher while being married to Saxton (And BEFORE sex with Saxton!), I'm going to stop reading. I imagined him as the Gaston character, but I fear she might be falling for him. Nooo Erienne, fall in love with your beast instead :( HE'S YOUR HUSBAND. Love him.

Now it's not that I'm not looking for those delicious pages of hot wild monkey love and passion, but so far this book hasn't shown much, and the few teases I get are of Erienne and Christopher. It's funny how the hot pages aren't a big part of the story, at least yet. The hottest we've gotten is Christopher sticking his hand under her skirts in the coach and devouring her neck. SHE NEEDS TO STOP BEING A HOSKI AND LOVE SAXTON. I can't do this whole cheating thing, it's just not right.

It's funny, rarely ever do I picture book characters so clearly, but every time Christopher shows up, I swear I see Count Axel Fersen from Marie Antoinette. Maybe it's because the book keeps mentioning the men wearing tricorns and he's the only attractive tricorn wearer I can see clearly in my mind.


When I imagine book characters, I can see their clothes and hair just fine, but the faces are a bit blurry. Hmm. Back to reading while I wait for Medieval Sims to download!

xx There'll Be Peace When You Are Done Marz

Smells

I want some new smells. I've seriously been a loyal Bath and Body Works user since I was a kid and while I've traveled through many different smells and styles (Ugh, to think I once actually liked Cucumber Melon), I want to try other brands. Philosophy is apparently some magic in a bottle, so I might give it a go. The only thing is their stuff smells like cakes and sweet treats, which is cool, but I'd rather smell like something fruity or more mysterious than a cake. Why is soap so tricky!

I guess I'm the same way with perfumes. I'm kind of tired of my B&BW sprays not lasting, and I'm ready to grow up and stop using the cheap shit in lieu of the crystal bottles marketed by the celebs. Now I'm on a quest to find what works for me. If I can't find anything here soon, I'm just gonna go with Kat's stuff :P


xx No Beauty Could Reach Me Marz

A Very Good Idea

I'm not religious, but I adore Botticelli and I'm very much in love with the idea of getting this Mary he painted on my side. The way he depicts her is absolutely gorgeous and I really want to get a painting done on me somewhere, so why not my boy Sandro's tempura?! Like I really love this idea. And I'd even get it in color, but that's probably at least a three hundred dollar piece. Maybe two fifty. Can I have this for my birthday? Oh it's gonna hurt like a bitch on my side.

xx I'll Be your Candle On The Water Marz

On The Saddest Halloween

You know, this is the first Halloween I've had in four years. And oddly enough, I just can't enjoy it. Couldn't put together a decent class-friendly costume, couldn't find the appetite to eat, and I can't find the will to stay awake. Not to mention Dorothy and friends are going to parties tonight, which makes me feel weird. It's like, I have a lot of work to do, and I just don't feel right at a party. I don't want to get shitfaced and find myself in a situation. I don't like people, and I don't trust people. But I feel like I always turn down Dorothy's invites to social events, which makes me think she sees me differently. I dunno.

I'm just not in a good mood. Maybe it's the layers of powder and eyeliner in my eyes, or something else, but I just feel like having a good cry/sleep. It's been a hard day of cold sweats, upset stomach, heartburn, and irritability. All I ate today was a burger and fries and some Starbucks, so I don't know. It's like I'm craving something, but I don't know what.

I don't want to do design work. I want to read A Rose In Winter and forget my problems.

xx Take Me Home To A House On A Hill Marz

Colors I'm Missing

Urban Decay




MUFE




Dad gave me some money... should I splurge on myself?! The irony: I never wear eye shadow during the week, just on the weekends. I kind of want to get the dark Sephora Moonshadow palette... is very pretty. But so are Kat's new goods! Gahhh. I don't need any more makeup. Yes I do. I WANT IT ALL.

xx Dying Souls Of Mankind Marz

I LOVE YOU BABY

LOVE ME, HEATH. LOVE ME.

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

HOLY SANTA CLAUS SHIT.

I CANNOT get over how phenomenal Beauty and the Beast was. The stage was framed with this gorgeous baroque filigree pattern and had a large glowing rose in the background. Fabulous. And everything about the show was just out of this world! The actors did every song perfectly and the choreography was really well done :) I still can't get over how beautiful the castle scenes were, with the melting gothic cathedral window as the background with the torn drapey curtains framing it all. And the beeeeeautiful metal staircases they built and moved around to show the different rooms were gorgeous! I want some.

I had the biggest smile on my face the whole time, from the first note of the overture allllllll the way to the group bowing at the end. I can't even begin to describe the feeling I had the whole time. I guess I could start with a feeling of love, because it's a love story after all. But I felt that same warm feeling, the heat on my back, and the same optimism. That's why I think I adore love stories and romantic books and movies, because I love feeling the feeling of love. It's hard to properly blog about, but I know what I'm talking about!

Videos from the show :) And I want to go see it ten more times.




xx Two Hearts As One Marz

I Need A New Book!

So I finished my book today. SO HARRY ENDED UP BEING IN LOVE WITH GENEVIEVE AND PROPOSED TO HER. She said yes! I was absolutely furious that she chose him and that the duke left. Good thing she realized this too and booked it straight to Falconbridge's house so she could tell him how much she loved him, and vice versa. I'm so glad she married the duke :) What's with all these HR girls getting multiple proposals? That seems so unromantic.

I want to get another book so bad, but I have no money for it. Maybe some other time! I won't have time for it this weekend anyways, what with driving to Tyler and a weekend with my bestest friend and my favorite musical. It's hard to imagine that Beauty and the Beast has even beat out Man of La Mancha, my childhood favorite musical. I FREAKING LOVE MUSICALS, ALRIGHT.

I'm oddly tired, but not tired at the same time. Just sort of mellow. Maybe I'll play some Gamecube :P It's no Xbox, but... close. It is a box, after all. I wish it was Wedding Sunday so there'd be good TV on! It's funny how I have no desire to really even watch TV. I'd paint if I had paints here :(

xx No More Talk Of Darkness Marz

Paraniod and Paranoider

Last night I was reading What I Did For A Duke and it was finally going somewhere! It's cute how Moncrieffe tried to learn about art to be able to show affection for Genevieve, and how he SEDUCED HER INTO HAVING HOT WILD MONKEY SEX. New shit keeps happening and I will admit that I'm loving the character's backstories. I'm honestly not sure where the book will end, because although Moncrieffe is trying to help her win back Harry, he still obviously has a thing for her since, well, the thing with the roses and the art and the hot wild monkey sex. But who will Genny end up with? DOES HARRY MARRY MILLICENT INSTEAD? WILL IAN AND THE DUKE FIGHT FINALLY?! There's like, a huge web of character interactions and I will say that that's keeping me hooked.

But after I put the book/phone away, I had the worst trouble going to sleep. I was just so awake and kept hearing the strangest sounds in the room. Of course it didn't help that Dorothy wasn't in the room. Bahhhh, what's wrong with me. Maybe I'll sleep better tonight, and if not, there's always tomorrow.

You know, I want to write again, but I'm not sure what exactly. I want to do a historical piece, but that requires lots of research and accuracy and things like that, which while I'm fine doing, will just end up taking forever. Well if I don't do historical, I'll do fantasy, but I keep running into dead ends. I do like Inni and Marko's world, so maybe I can play with that a bit and tweak it some more, or at the least, make some more art from it :P And if I didn't do fantasy, I don't know what.

Hmmm. I think I'm going to spend a lot of the design lecture rewriting Inni's story. I have so much art about the story, so I might as well do something with it. And maybe paint Marko sometime :P

xx And So It Is Just Like You Said It Would Be Marz

CAUSE WHEN THE LIGHTS ARE DOWN

THERE'S NO MORE TO SAY! LOVE IS THE REAAAAAAALLLL PAIN!

Oh Kamelot. I love you, and I love that you played this song at the show. Well I just finished one motif of a cute little Bialetti coffee pot, and have fourish more hours to finish two more and finish my perspective drawing. I think I'll be good on time, but you never know! It's another quiet night of Dorothy being out and me in the room. It's a good thing though, I like listening to my music :P

Seriously, once Thursday morning is over, no more stress. I'll be good for awhile, but I NEED TO DO A MOTIF LIKE, EVERY OTHER DAY. So I don't fall behind again for finals. This is gonna be such a good weekend after drawing on Wednesday! Lunch with Annie Fannie, dinner with the greatest person on earth, and then a weekend with my best friend and favorite musical. Love love love it all!

HOLY SHIT. I CAVED IN AND FINALLY BOUGHT SOME SWEATS. I love these things like no other. The girl sweats were all thin and had no pockets, but the guy sweats... oh God. These are so thick and soft and POCKETED and loose and comfy and there's SO MUCH CROTCH ROOM. Girl pants suck. Now I'll stop bitching about sweats... well, maybe I want a few more pairs. Mmmmm. These are seriously the best things I've ever put on my legs.

TIME FOR MOAR ARTZ.

xx How Could I Be Condemned For The Things I Have Done Marz

JESUS GIVE ME SOME ADDERAL.

OH MY GREAT GAPING BANANA NUT FRIED DING DONG HO HO GIRL. I just want to sit here and eat gummy worms and watch a movie. I have zero focus to draw and so much shit to do. So. Much. I already got one motif done today and need to do like, two more. And get those damn gestures out of the way, ugh.

Why am I even blogging about this! There's this odd smell I keep smelling in the room, sort of like rotten maple syrup and old food. But what is it and where is it coming from?! HARD TO FOCUS WHEN YOUR ROOM SMELLS LIKE AN ASS. BLURSGGHHDGHNDDFGGGGFFFF.

xx SOMEHOW I KNOW THAT I AM HAUNTED TO BE WANTED MARZ

Someday